Confused about my (25m) sexuality and pull towards Older men
I 25m have been kinda curious about my sexuality. I remember getting soo anxious whenever I would have gay thoughts. I also grew up in a very conservative household.
English is not my first language.
If I have to explain its like I'm 90% straight but then something happens and suddenly I'm into men for few days, and o boy , the feeling of attraction is so visceral, almost tangible. No idea why ?
I'm a very normal masculine kinda guy but when I see men my type it's like something takes over me and I have this desire almost like a purpose to please them older men. It's sooo intense. I become kinda submissive. In a way I want to just fill them up with pleasure.
If I have to tell my type it would be bigger than me. Chubby a bit. Belly with full hair. Hairy very very hairy.
My older men awakening happened when I saw this guy will angell. And something broke in my brain. Masculine, little bit dominant personality. Haha
Please tell me I'm normal. Cos I do feel lot of guilt for it. I still feel that maybe I'm not being manly enough. Or something is truly broken in me. Cos for these days I literally lose attraction to women? I just wanna know has this happened to someone else too?? I was really happy to discover this subreddit, finally somebody who gets it.
But what surprised me was how many of you older daddies were thinking we aren't into them 😆😆. Like you guys don't know the power you hold over us. Lol