Having doubts and frustrations
Hello,
I have been having this feeling the past few months about my sissy side. I enjoy exploring this side of me; wearing girly clothes, putting on a cage, swallowing my cum, etc. However, I keep having this nagging feeling that I "missed the window" so to speak. Every video I see on xhamster or post on reddit shows sissies who appear to be much younger than me and seeing that I am about to turn 30 here in a couple of months, I feel like I've missed my "prime" so to speak.
On top of that, I feel like that with my mental blocker of being scared to walk outside wearing feminine clothes and, as I have been tackling this for the better part of a decade now, it could take years until I am confident enough to actually take that step and I don't want it to take years. I want to be able to just walk outside in a cute dress and heels and not care...but I do care. I don't know why I care but I do and I hate it deeply.
I feel like I missed out or wasted the years of my life that would have been the "best" time for me to be a sissy.
I would love any advice you all have on how to tackle this feeling.
Best,
Autumn