Note: long post ahead.
I was 17 when all this started
Curious ako, sobrang curious.
The feeling na gusto mo na ma-experience yung bagay na parang everyone does pero ikaw hindi pa?
But the problem, galing ako sa sobrang conservative na family.
Meron silang iniingatang pangalan, reputation, kaya pati ako nadadamay.
Kahit magka-girlfriend, bawal pa that time (until now naman haha).
So instead mawala yung curiousty ko, lalo lang siyang lumakas.
Naging medyo rebellious ako in a way, but very discreet.
Then i realize if i can’t do it in a normal way(to lose my virginity). Hahanap ako ng ibang paraan.
I did some research online then hanggang sa napunta ako sa mga paid setup.
That’s when i lost my virginity
Akala ko mid-20s yung girl, pero nalaman ko later on, she was already around 30.
And dun ko unang na-feel yung kakaibang experience na hindi ko ma-explain that time kasi it was very surreal moment nga eh. Nakagat ko pa nga nipples niya sa sobrang gigil and she slap me haha.
And honestly, hindi ko siya nakalimutan. Paano banaman kamukha niya si keanna reeves.
After that, parang may nagbago sa preferences ko.
Hindi ko na hinahanap lang yung ka-age ko, mas na-curious na ako sa mas matatanda.
Parang may something kasi sakanila
yung confidence, yung control, the fact that they know what they do.
Parang hindi na sila nangangapa, which is na experience ko sa mga younger and around my age. Idk baka kasi naka tira lang kasi ako sa province.
Then after that experience, I discovered online spaces like forums, communities
na naging way ko para maka-meet ng iba’t ibang tao.
Then doon ko narin na experience iba’t ibang setup.
May ka-age ko, may mas bata, pero iba talaga yung impact kapag mas matanda tangina haha.
Ang intense, mas confident, mas unpredictable. And the thought your fucking a married woman, single mom, someone who are very respectable in their communities or workplace, damn that’s a fucking trophy guys haha.
And dun lalo akong nahook.
Hindi lang sa experience but sa idea na may side tayo na hindi mo makikita sa labas.
Yung parang ang inosente tingnan pero shit haha, mas wild pa sakin. I have experienced na someone na naging thirdy nila ako but then the wife is very naughty and gusto tumakas sa hubby na kami lang haha. Ang naugthy, gusto pako Itali but nahuli siya ni hubby and nag-stop na yung communication.
But the part na naging addictive para akin is actually the idea more than the deed itself.
Cougars you are the best haha, I love ya’ll, ang naughty niyo. For me you guys gave the best/memorable experiences sa sex life ko as of now. I hope madagdagan pa haha.
I’m almost 21 right now, I hope maka hunt pako haha, and sana yung organic encounter naman. All of my experience kasi if from Reddits and other forums lang. Yun lang, btw ang sipag ng mod dito, let’s be thankful. I hope lumaki pa ang community. You guys are the best!!