u/Spiritual_Creme4896

I am 25 yrs old, introvert, average looking and was Virgin. I got to know about gonewild subreddits through an Instagram reel and quickly installed reddit out of curiosity. I got really turned on by the posts and couples sexual photos. I pinged various couples and single girls. Got ghosted by many, also got scammed by one girl navya (she verified initially on telegram video call). After a few days of struggling, I came to know about a couple in Noida near gaur city mall.I negotiated the price and finally for 10k, I went there with a fear in mind. If you want the sex story, I can write a different post. so finally I lost my virginity. But it wasn't as I had expected, I was facing difficulty to keep erection while wearing a condom for the first time in my life. I thought it's done and I' ll never try something like that again. But now my sexual frustration peaked and I went again to same couple. (everytime it was MF only and husband not involved or present in room). I did a little better. Now the lust in me increased and I started exploring other girls / couples. I found another in Gurgaon, this one in 30s and quite open minded. She allowed me to fuck without condom and that was my mistake but enjoyed a lot. After few days, I saw some white deposit on my penis and initially thought its sebum but later it started little irritation. I searched on Google and got scared for STD, I quickly went for STD panel test and got tested positive for herpes (hsv). iGg was positive IgM negative,means long term antibodies development for herpes but not an active infection. I went into a little depression and searched a lot about herpes. finally found that it is quite common and many people don't know it bcoz they never develop any symptoms however they can spread it. Slowly, I accepted it and thanked God that I didn't get hiv or hepatitis. That was the last adventure for me and now I am back to masturbation for pleasure. Although, I think about how would I tell it to my future wife.