5:37 am , 2nd day in a row. This is my 2nd g.
I don't even know how I got here. From barely to doing almost everyday.
I have access to really pure stuff at an insanely low price which sounds like a good thing until you get hooked on it. So now I buy 2g a week like it's groceries.
My academic performance went downhill and i risk my engineering degree. Social life is non existent at this point. Lost too many friends and opportunities. Stopped doing my hobbies and stopped going to the gym.
I just want to avoid everyone and everything to be home doing mdma.
I stopped most drugs and i just take mdma now.
I know what this is doing to my serotonin. I know outcomes on my brain. I know all of it, and I still dose again two days later because the comedown can be brutal and the only thing that fixes it is more.
Just needed to say it out loud somewhere. Anyone been here?