Seeing my ex for the first time in almost a year
I’ll be seeing my ex very soon (both F). For the first time in a long time. I’m super nervous about it. I made this account to be as anonymous as possible so none of my friends saw this post.
I’m not going to go super into detail and spill all our business, but there are still unresolved feelings there. The biggest being sexual chemistry. Neither of us have ever connected sexually with anyone else like we did with each other. Other reasons as well to be nervous and other feelings, but that’s the most glaring. I know she’s going to want to hook up, and tbh I have the urge as well, but we can’t and I’m nervous I won’t be strong enough in the moment to say no! Because if I’m being honest, I still have sex dreams about her. I still have fantasies about her. It’s so fucked up but it’s the truth. Her and I both have “moved on” since and are in relationships. So that’s why I’m so hard set on not hooking up. Idk what my goal is here but it feels good to get it off my chest