being young and hot and unapologetically fem is SOOO MUCH FUN omg
i started off as a straight guy all throughout high school. i grew up in a religious, conservative family and culture, but in a very liberal place. so, i was always accepting of queer people. but when i began to realize my own bisexuality, and the fact that i love dressing and being feminine, that same acceptance didn’t reflect upon myself. i felt so much doubt and shame as i began to explore myself throughout college. but i had so much fun figuring myself out. i had A LOT of straight sex as i partied my ass off. i was living the dream - young, turnt, surrounded by beautiful women, and successful. and yet, something was weighing down on me throughout, something felt off. i was happy, but i didn’t feel as though i was living the life i wanted, even though i’d dreamed of reaching this point.
eventually, i couldn’t help myself from remembering the desires id pushed deep down within myself. ever since as young as 13, i’ve been curious about femininity. it started with innocuous things like femdom porn, playing with taboo and enjoying my foolishly unrestricted internet access. soon, i was watching sissy porn and stealing my sister’s clothes, sending pictures of myself to strangers on the internet. at certain points, i was near certain that i was bisexual (and probably trans too). every time, though, i’d push my feelings down and suppress things till i forgot about them.
i came into college thinking i was straight, despite having had all of these thoughts for years. what a fool i was. pretty soon, i couldn’t help myself from exploring.
i still vividly remember the time my friends and i were having a huge pregame in my dorm room for halloween my freshman year. we’d bought multiple handles of alcohol and invited everyone we knew. i was drunk as fuck before half the party even got there. at some point, this absolutely gorgeous twink walks in. he was 6’2 and one of the prettiest people i’ve ever seen, and very feminine. we instantly clicked - it was as though our eyes met and we locked onto each other. one moment i was calling him pretty, and the next we were on the floor making out in front of all my friends.
after that point, it was pretty hard to deny i was bi lol
and yet, i still had my hesitations about hooking up with guys. i didn’t feel hot enough, and i didn’t feel desired. so, i continued doing what i was doing - i hooked up with an absurd number of girls (because it was easy) while exploring my femininity. makeup, crop tops, dresses, the whole shebang. dildos, buttplugs, and chastity became my secret pleasure while i was fucking sluts like there was no tomorrow.
eventually though, i was tired of acting as though everything was normal. i came out as nonbinary and decided to try living genuinely as myself. soon enough, i was dressing fem in public - nothing too crazy but i was expressing my queerness, and openly so. by this time id long abandoned any ideas that this whole ‘sissy’ thing may just be a kink for me.
after a while of wearing panties every day, walking around campus in crop tops, sucking a dick or two on occasion, and fucking my dildo every chance i got, i got a girlfriend. that was an interesting experience - rather than being a cis het man in a relationship, i was now in an openly queer one where i could be fully myself. pretty quickly, i realized that i wanted to be my true, feminine self in all aspects.
soon after, i broke up with that girl (long story). now, it’s hot girl summer 🤭 i’m in a new city for the summer and ive kinda let loose…
a couple weeks ago i decided to bottom for the first time. i’d had opportunities to do so in the past - a trans girl i’d been hooking up with in the past had BEGGED me to let her top me but i’d always been too hesitant (i wish id done it lol) - but i’d never taken the leap to bottoming yet.
i hopped on grindr and sniffies to find the perfect top. a slutty profile photo of my panty-clad ass did most of the work for me, but i was sifting through for the PERFECT guy. soon enough, i got a dm from the sexiest guy id seen on the app. he was black, 6’2, and a year older than me. we got to chatting, and as soon as he sent me a dick pic i KNEW he was the one. he was hugeee, he had such a perfect 8 inch BBC i was drooling over the photo.
we arranged for him to come over, and i took my time getting cute for him - i showered, douched, did my makeup, and put on a cute outfit. i wore a crop top, booty shorts, sexy black lace bikini cut panties, and my favorite buttplug when he came over to see me. it was a little bit awkward meeting him - i really didn’t know what to say. but pretty much as soon as he was in my bedroom, i had my lips around his cock.
something i haven’t told you guys yet is that im a true, natural cocksucker. genuinely, my cock sucking abilities r unparalleled given my lack of experience. the first time i sucked a dick, he came fast af, and he didn’t even remotely believe i’d never done it before. every cock has had a similar reaction to my throat.
so, i suck his dick for a while… then he asks to eat my ass. i flip onto my stomach and he goes to WORK. OH MY GOD, i was moaning and calling him daddy within minutes. i couldn’t help it, he was eating me out soooo good… and the way he was talking to me like a little slut and slapping my ass throughout turned me on soooo much. i wasn’t even hard but i was feeling more pleasure than id ever had from fucking a pussy already!
he ate my ass for what felt like an eternity, leaving me shaking. but soon enough, it was time for the real thing. with a lot of lube, he started to fuck me. it was hard at first - he kept missing the hole and i was pretty tight. but, i was well prepared from all my practice with my dildos. soon enough, he was pounding my brains out, digging me out with long strokes in every position imaginable. with each stroke, pleasure would reverberate throughout my body in a way i’d never felt. i couldn’t help but scream at the top of my lungs as he took me. he treated me like a woman, and i LOVED it. the way he touched me, the way he took control, the lust in his eyes, the way his cock destroyed my hole. I LOVED IT ALL.
it was by far the best sex i’ve ever had, and i realized i truly LOVE bottoming.
ever since, i’ve realized that i can unapologetically be myself, and be slutty if i want. now, my grindr profile is just me - a full body and face photo of myself in what’s now a normal outfit for me, a crop top and short shorts. and i get SO MUCH attention. genuinely, if i open the app for 5 minutes, ill get at least 5 dms. and ALL OF THEM will be from sexy, sexy guys who are my exact type (muscular, hung black guys). literally, i have 3 trades with hugeee BBCs who r all tall and muscular in my grindr messages RIGHT NOW asking to meet up.
PLUS, to a lot of women i’m more attractive now than i ever was. recently i hooked up with the thickest woman ive ever been with - she was my first black girl and WOW she had ass for days. i met her in a crop top and short shorts as well, at my dorm building. she was soooo into me - we smoked some weed outside and she was already on top of me. soon enough, we were back up in my dorm and i was pounding her brains out. ohhh my god her ass was fat. i was honestly worried i wouldn’t be able to handle allat bc im skinny and only have a slightly above average cock, but WOW did i put work in. i had her screaming for the hour and a half that i was pounding her, and she came multiple times. having her biting the pillow and uncontrollably moaning while i pounded her from behind felt amazinggg. and she was SO tight. now, she’s blowing up my phone too, sending me booty pics whenever i want. plus, what i like the most is that she didn’t gaf that i was queer and fem. when we were dryhumping, i was grinding my panties against hers. it was definitely a big confidence booster after breaking up with my ex, who often made me doubt she was even sexually attracted to me at all.
PLUS, whenever i see a pretty girl on the street, i literally just go up to her now and ask for her number. AND I HAVENT BEEN REJECTED YET!!! whether i’m fem or masc (i wear masc business casual clothes to work), THAT SHITS GREEEEN!!
i’m flexible in how i present, AND im sexy no matter which presentation im in. any night i come home from work, i have my pick of the litter. i could invite a sexy hung trade over to pound my brains out, or i could have some thicc shit over to take my cock.
AND IM SUCCESSFUL, HAVE THE BEST FRIENDS EVER, AND IM IN A BEAUTIFUL CITY!!
life is soooo good when you’re queer and proud
i don’t think i could ever be straight and lame again