u/TheRealMeowMann

I've never been able to hold an edge for long but this morning I managed to for almost like 30-60 seconds

Which doesn't sound that long but it was amazing

It's normally like instead of cumming it's an edge and then it goes away

This was like not letting up at all, it was just constantly intense

My brain felt mushy as and it's like my eyes stopped working

Definitely something I wanna get good at, I haven't cum in like 3 days which is a lot for me, I usually get off twice a day minimum

Fuck porn is so good, I wish I properly worshipped it like a religion. I was going to reply to a comment with this but re-wrote it to be shorter, I still wanted to put to somewhere though

You can make porn your life and still be happy, just make every second outside of your social life dedicated to porn

I watch like 3 hours of porn a day not including the casual 5 minute scrolls I do throughout the day at work

Sometimes like probably this weekend I might end up watching porn for about 5 or 6 hours in a go, maybe even closer to 8 or 9. Two weeks ago I spent 12 hours non-stop watching porn started at like 10PM

I still have a really active social life, I don't have loads of friends outside of work yet, I moved not too long ago for work, but already co-workers will shout lunch or bring me snacks and stuff, the other day someone brought me another jar of their home made roasted peanuts which are next level

But I want you and anyone reading this to understand, you can be successful and well liked even with a crazy porn addiction that controls your life, people who ruin their lives for porn, while super hot, is super unrealistic for most of us, the second our lives are ruined is the second we can't watch porn anymore, no job means no WiFi or phone or computer ect. But you don't have to ruin your life for an incredible porn addiction

I don't actually wanna get uwued without my consent by a bunch of strange men because I'm way too scared of STDs

But

Imagine going for like a gooner thing with someone just jerk off to porn in someone's car with them, nothing is supposed to happen, then like 3 or 4 of their friends show up and start getting suggestive and flirty and stuff, kinda surround the car and your ways out

Initially it's the fear of being caught, then the fear of not knowing what's going to happen

Then they're just casual and chatty about porn and stuff while you're jerking off with this guy, it's just a casual voyeurism thing for them that he didn't mention

Then when you try to leave they stop you, they make it hard to open the door by leaning against it and ignoring you when you ask them to move, hard to get out of the car by standing too close and continuing to talk about stuff, surround you against the side of the car when you finally get out, following you when you go back to your car and standing against the door to your car

Every step to trying to leave is just made inconvenient and difficult, constant flushes of fear as your attempts to shut down conversation and leave are ignored and spoken over

Not aggressively though, just ignoring your want to leave by being overly chatty and in your way, making it seem like you're gonna get uwued if you don't leave soon, and them making it as difficult as possible and take as long as possible to get away from them

They're calling you names and stuff making fun of you for being a gooner, they're talking about things they've done to other people and kinks they have, almost leaving you out of the conversation but not letting you leave, forced to listen to the things they are making seem like they're going to do to you

I'd be addicted to the rush of adrenaline and the powerless feeling of being massively outnumbered but it'd be sweet if they never did anything and did let me go once I tried hard enough

But the like repeated spike of adrenaline every time an attempt to leave is shut down, like you finally get the door open, he finally moved, you're finally allowed to leave and now he's talking to you and his friend, hands on the roof leaning into the door, so close that you can't really move let alone go to get out of the car, he's completely blocking the exit

If you ever panic and try to push them out if the way or something then you've got to deal with him and all his mates so that's not an option, you just have to be nice and hope they let you leave

It would be so fucking hot to live with hard out gooners

I'd love to come home to them watching porn loudly on the TV type stuff, or hearing it from their rooms, like their porn is so loud it keeps me up at night just listening to it and their grunts and stupid gooner noise and talk well they furiously jerk off

I'd also really love them to leave their socks and underwear on my bed, super into musky stuff, I can't stop imaging coming home to my room full of their cum stained underwear and socks hotboxing my room so bad it's all I can smell all night or like they keep jerking off onto my bed all the time so it's covered in cum stains whenever I get home

And if I don't do their laundry they expect me to buy them new stuff to wear, findom stuff is so bad but it makes it so much hotter, like being forced to pay their rent and stuff sometimes or all the time, maybe they need money to buy a fleshlight or something so they can't afford rent this week and I have to be supportive

Playing games or watching a movie or sleeping or something and they just barge in to show me some porn or something whenever they want, I'd love them to get really mad if I'm not showing enough interest in it too, push me around a bit and insult me for not being a good enough gooner, like make me feel bad for not being a good enough friend and making them feel uninteresting, gaslight me into feeling bad for not watching porn

I'd love to be hanging out watching something or playing something and they just start watching porn on their phone and start jerking off

Make porn inescapable, a constant thing that's going on somewhere in the house

Someone a while ago got me to organise a bunch of porn for them and it was insanely arousing

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I didn't go to sleep and ended up getting into that situation later at night, I spent 8 hours straight until about 12am organizing porn for someone for free, I'm not sure what it is about it but the entire time I was so horny, I was in like a haze, I keep thinking about it and every time I do I get so insanely horny

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I keep fantasizing about someone expecting me to dedicate one or two hours every day to organizing loads and loads of porn, and even more hours on the weekend, a never ending work load with KPIs and punishments for doing it wrong or not achieving enough. A big one would be being forced to go through loads of stuff I've already done because they forgot something initially and it being treated like a mistake on my part I need to make up for in my own time, stuff that makes it so I'm expected to spend time outside of the expected time working on making up for *my* mistakes, like I was about to have a break but now I have to skip my break to fix *my* mistake or I can't go to sleep until I've fixed *my* mistake even though I just spent 3 hours working and to fix it it's going to take another 3 hours

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I'd love to have to request leave if I don't want to work and just have it be based on however they're feeling, no rights or anything for me, if they want me to work then I just have to or I can pay to make up for it

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I'd love punishments to be money related or like be forced to delete a game from my Steam account or something, for organizing something wrong or having a duplicate or whatever

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I don't know what it is about it but writing this I'm almost salivating

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It feels like such a weird kink but it might be slight trauma response to having shit bosses, but it feels so good. And obviously it's one of those things I'm glad I'm not expected to do when I'm not horny, so maybe chastity? Uwu

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I did that initial bit like 2 months ago and it's been at least once every couple days I think about it and fantasies about it. They were making loads of censored porn and had thousands of images they wanted organised, it felt so good every time they told me they had more right when I was getting close to finishing, thinking I'd get to go to bed or take a break and then it's just like they dropped a huge pile of work on my desk I had to get done first, the crushing pressure of work was entirely replaced with getting massively turned on