u/ThinPiccolo2549

I am playing LoL for 4 years now but I was always pretty bad, I was very happy when a group of 4 kings invited me to join their party for the next clash, which is like a monthly turnament, I thought they wanted me because I was a good player. When I joined they told me there would be consequences if I didn’t perform. Turns out they and our enemies were indeed way better than me, we lost the turnament and the boys were very angry at me and told me I needed to make it up to them. I was already moderately drunk at that point so I let them undress me and fuck me one after another, because I felt ashamed that I had let them down. They took my virginity back then, but I didn’t tell them.
A month later they called again, and asked me if I wanted to play. I said yes, but without the fucking because it made me uncomfortable. They agreed. We lost again and they fucked me again. Since then I get fucked every month by them. They aren’t good looking, they aren’t strong or smart but I agree again and again, I don’t know why, it feels wrong but also it feels so good being used and abused without consenting.