Zany femboy 🖤🤍
I've always wanted to be a femboy since I was a kid, but I never dared to try it.
When I was little, maybe less than six years old, my family made me try on a sweatshirt that was way too big for me. I kept it on for a while, and I really liked it because it was so long it looked like a dress, and I felt like a girl, like a princess. Obviously, they took it off, but I wanted to keep it.
Back then, it wasn't as easy as it is now.
I want to be one, but honestly, I not feel pretty at all. I'm not like normal people; I'm like... a wackadoo of random things. People often say mean things to me on the street or anywhere, even on photos. I'm the only one of all my friends who gets called a "screamer" or has "🤮🤮🤮" emojis and many of then aren't even femboys :T
If I try to be a femboy, maybe I'll just be more bugly and give them a bad image.
I've tried so many times to love myself, but I can't. I can't, I can't, I can't 💔
The only times I'm happy with myself are when I help someone else feel happy.
Others are femboys simply because one day they try on a skirt and it looks good on them, and they start posting hot and cute pictures.
And I, who always wanted to be feminine, can't be.
... I want to give up with all that stuff, but I know that if I do, everything will be worse, and I'll never know how far I can go, I'll never know if this story has a happy ending.
I never stop believing, and I think I'll continue to do so even when I cease to be; my soul will continue to believe in everything and everyone.
I'm afraid, but I don't want to give in, not now that I've come so far and endured so much. Maybe I'm not like the rest, and maybe I see all the flaws and ugliness I have, but that can't be all I am, and surely can't stop me from trying.
I believe in you if you're insecure, and sure you're A LOT prettier than what you think you are ❤️🩹
If you're insecure or if you are confident, or if you are... a tinea pellionella... no matter because you're pretty and cool and special as a dream!
The stars above all seems to shine, inspired by that light of thine ✨️