Please read, I could really use some advice. I'll leave a summary at the end.
I did coke and molly at a party a while back. At some point my face got all stiff and weird with huge wide open eyes, I was obviously way too high. I couldn’t tell if it was just paranoia, but it felt like people around me noticed, were laughing, and now I’m pretty sure some of them were recording me. You know those random clips that turn into viral memes? Yeah… that. I made some funny fucking faces.
I remember seeing more than one person pointing their phone at me, and whenever I looked, they’d quickly lower it like nothing happened. I ended up leaving early and didn’t even enjoy the party. Such a dumb mistake.
This has been eating at me for months. I kept trying to convince myself it was all in my head. But today I decided to look up photos from that event on Instagram (it was last year) using the #hashtag… and yeah. I found something.
Someone posted a picture of themselves with me in the background, and I look absolutely awful, stiff, out of it, just completely gone. Like… embarrassingly bad. I was honestly hoping I wouldn’t find anything, that it was all paranoia. But now I don’t even know, it kind of feels intentional? Who posts a picture with someone in that state in the background?
I’m kind of freaking out. If there’s a photo, there could easily be videos too that I may never see. I work in a pretty conservative field and I genuinely love my job, so this is stressing me out a lot. I even messaged the person from a fake account pretending to be a friend, asking about it. I’m planning to politely ask them to take it down, if they even respond.
I feel like shit. I’m young, just starting my career, and I feel like I have a lot to lose. If anyone has advice or has been through something similar, I’d really appreciate it. And please don’t roast me, I already know I messed up. I have a pretty recognizable face and body, I can't even deny it was me.
Lesson learned though. I genuinely thought I was losing my mind at the time. At least now I know it wasn’t just in my head. I know this might end up being nothing, but this whole situation is really messing with me mentally.
Has anyone here ever been recorded without consent or had something like this happen? With all this AI shit we can be easily recognized on the internet.
TL;DR: Did coke and molly at a party, got way too high, looked messed up, and now I’m pretty sure several people recorded me. Found a photo of myself in the background of someone’s insta post and I’m freaking out.
EDIT: Ok, I lied. It was not months ago, it was two days ago. I tried to make it less obvious and identifiable. Sorry about that. That's why I'm so fucked up right now. I live in a conservative country, not in the US.