u/Unhappysold

I don’t know if this makes me a shitty boyfriend or just a lonely dude with no self control.

Whenever my girlfriend isn’t around for a few days, I end up jerking off to her pictures and old videos she sent me. Sometimes it’s because I miss her. Sometimes I’m just horny and she’s the only person I actually want. But afterward I always get hit with this weird guilt like I’m violating something private even though she sent them to me willingly.

The darker part is how obsessive it gets. I’ll replay the same clips at 2AM instead of sleeping. Zooming in on tiny details. Rewatching moments where she smiled at the camera like it was meant only for me. It stops feeling sexual after a point and starts feeling unhealthy, almost pathetic.

I genuinely love this girl, but sometimes I wonder if missing someone too much can rot your brain a little.

No idea if other guys do this or if I should keep this confession buried.

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I don’t know if this makes me a shitty boyfriend or just a lonely dude with no self control.

Whenever my girlfriend isn’t around for a few days, I end up jerking off to her pictures and old videos she sent me. Sometimes it’s because I miss her. Sometimes I’m just horny and she’s the only person I actually want. But afterward I always get hit with this weird guilt like I’m violating something private even though she sent them to me willingly.

The darker part is how obsessive it gets. I’ll replay the same clips at 2AM instead of sleeping. Zooming in on tiny details. Rewatching moments where she smiled at the camera like it was meant only for me. It stops feeling sexual after a point and starts feeling unhealthy, almost pathetic.

I genuinely love this girl, but sometimes I wonder if missing someone too much can rot your brain a little.

No idea if other guys do this or if I should keep this confession buried.