What was it like the first time you actively went looking for sex? Not the graphic details; more the emotions, mindset, nerves, excitement, awkwardness, and how it felt while it was unfolding. Was it what you expected or completely different?
I need to get this off my chest because I’m a 25M and every time I read Indian confession threads or see people casually talking about hookups, relationships, wild experiences, or how naturally sex seems to happen for them, I feel incredibly small and intimidated, like everyone else is some kind of sex god who knows exactly what to say, how to escalate things, how to ask for what they want, how to try new things, while I’m just standing outside that world looking in. It’s not that I don’t have desire, I get turned on, I masturbate, I’m human, but none of that fills the empty void of feeling unwanted or untouched, and sometimes it makes the loneliness feel worse because it reminds me of what I haven’t experienced. I know I look good, so it’s not even about thinking I’m unattractive, it’s more that I genuinely don’t know how people make it happen, how they turn conversations that way, how they create those opportunities, and seeing everyone else talk like it’s effortless just makes me feel more behind, more empty, and honestly like I’m not worth living or worth having sex with. Maybe I am looking for some consolation, I don’t know, but I’m not looking for the usual “your time will come” or “don’t compare yourself” advice, I just want to know if anyone else has ever felt this left out and defeated by it. It's overwhelming me and I can't take it.