Obsessed with pleasuring myself in nature.
(Nearly Middle aged female) Recently I have been enamored with masturbating and climaxing in nature. I work a moderately high level stressful corporate healthcare job and it drains my soul. I am on somewhat of a new age spiritual journey and I yearn to be connected with source and the Mother Earth.
I own a few dozen acres of my own land. As a female, I enjoy feeling one with nature. I take my backpack out onto my property with my little kit of toys and a towel. I have so many beautiful spots to pick from.
I lay out my towel and slowly strip naked. At first I practice breathing and usually do some meditation and maybe qigong movements. I like to feel Mother Earth fill me. Today while doing research I discovered the concept of Tantra and kundalini. So I marry some combination of the two. Whatever feel right and comes naturally to my body.
Then I move onto touching myself and eventually multiple climaxes with my different toys.
It’s best to keep your breath moving and your eyes open. It feels like Mother Earth is making love to you.
This is an evolving ritual for me but it feels otherworldly.
Over the last 6 years I’ve gained 80 pounds sadly and I haven’t felt sexy for a long time.
But out there with creator all alone, I feel magical. I also found myself a manual typewriter to channel thoughts and downloads. I purchased items for an outdoor alter yesterday and tucked it all ways in a tote hidden in my forest. Last night I spend well over an hour making love to the earth with candles all around and myself and then writing out thoughts I had. Today I went to my forest bedroom and climaxed twice. The first time I practiced a kundalini breathing method and was able to cum with just my fingers. Then wandered down to my stream and sat on a moss covered rock with my pants at my ankles and used my vibrator to climax. I felt the life force rush into me at the peak.
I created a whole new Reddit account just to explore and discuss this new experience. I’m not sure what community this belongs in. Witchy, hippy, sex? I don’t know what I’m going through but it feels great physically and spiritually.