u/WoodenSeat8088

I’ve been doing drugs and drinking since I was 12 and I’m almost 33. I’ve been in and out of rehab since I was 18. In and out lixery rehabs till I was 26. And lost my moms insurance and just went to treatment again since then last September 2025. I lasted 10 months it’s the second longest I’ve had but I’ve been on methadone the whole time. The first time I was on subs I got a year and a few months from new years 2019 to 2020. And then got on methadone and used on it and drank on it the whole time till last September. I got back on methadone November and now I’m drinking and using again on methadone. I can’t stand not being on something how do I change it. I’ve tried the whole not being a bitch thing. Am I too stubborn to even do it?