Don’t know where to go with this
I’m just going to type how I feel. Me straight 23 just threw away my panties,lingerie pink chastity everything that shows femininity. I wish I would have kept them but I was nervous on my family finding out, I had it them in a shoe box but I kept my chastity cages their black. also I have a small dildo I kept it’s blue but I’m hesitant to throw it out. I only ever used it once it doesn’t really satisfies me it’s too small etc it’s not shaped like a penis. I still worry and kinda think of excuses on if they find it. Every month I have like a feminine urge to submit etc like a loving way but I never took the leap I’m scared if I’ll regret and be traumatized by the experience last time I kinda came close was with a 52 year old he was married and wanted to meet up casually before anything but I kinda chickened out since this urge goes away quickly like 2-3 days . I don’t know where to go with this part of me. It all started with panties when I was 13 I would wear my older sisters I don’t think they ever caught me it’s disgusting I know . I’m unsure if it’s the real me I don’t know if I should buy like men underwear that are more feminine or give me the feminine feel or if I should try and be a dom for others alike