God I’m so insanely horny again. My brain is completely melted. I can’t think straight, I can’t focus, I can’t even pretend I want to go back anymore.
Like everyone else I started with normal sissy hypno and PMVs. Those used to make me leak so much. Now they barely do anything. I’ve been watching less and less because they just don’t hit hard enough anymore. Regular gay porn doesn’t cut it either, even though it felt so taboo at first. It’s hot but it’s not intense or degrading enough for what I crave now. I need to be insulted, humiliated, broken down, and reminded what a disgusting little fag I’m turning into.
Even when I’m not locked, the PNC barely slows me down. I’ll stroke my useless clitty like a desperate bitch in heat and blow my pathetic load in under a minute (which makes it even hotter) then lie there in my own sticky mess, barely ashamed, and seconds later I’m even hornier. Sometimes I grind my leaking clit against a pillow for hours like a filthy animal in heat to break it even more. But the only thing that truly satisfies me is slamming a huge dildo balls-deep into my sloppy sissy cunt and fucking myself stupid for hours like a cheap fag slut.
I only watch real men now. Dominant buff guys and big fat dominant men. I love seeing them kiss smaller, twinkier, more fragile guys like me. Tongues deep and sloppy, swapping spit, That raw, messy male only kissing makes it feel so fucking gay and breaks my brain harder than anything.
I’m even training myself to like hairy men, hairy chests and hairy asses. Musky man spreading his cheeks? I want to shove my tongue deep into his sweaty shithole and rim him like the depraved cumrag I’m turning into. I’m craving the whole man now: thick chests and muscle, strong faces, i need to find him handsome at least (i have a type now lol). Not just the cock.
I’m deliberately ruining my brain. I want it to be impossible to ever enjoy normal sex again. Even though I know I might regret it one day, that fear just makes my hole clench harder and my clitty leak more. I want to be 100% gay. No more fake bisexuality. Just thick cocks, heavy balls, hairy men, and deep disgusting man-on-man stuff using me. I want to be a real fag. Spit in my mouth. Even piss down my throat. Flood my guts with load after load while you call me a worthless hole. I want it all. I want it to be impossible to go back. I want my brain permanently broken.
I’m so fucking deep and I still feel like it’s not enough. There’s not enough real male only hypno or PMVs that are pure degradation. I need more. I need worse. I just want raw man-on-man stuff, especially BBC.
Are there other sissies here who actually want to go all the way? Not “I still love women but I’m a sissy” I mean fully gay. 100% into men, not just cock. The kind who gets weak for big dominant guys, their bodies, their faces, their smell, their assholes, everything. Still pretty, locked, and anal-only, but zero attraction left for anything but real men.
I want to go further. More degrading, more humiliating, dirtier. Tell me how to ruin myself even more. I’m so horny and empty and stupid right now