My FINAL Acid Trip. Ever.
I’ve had plenty of LSD experiences, unlike any others..
Here, I will tell you about my most recent & FINAL trip.
Because LSD connects your neural networks in ways that they’ve (almost) never been connected, I felt like the way I have been living wasn’t lined up with how I should have been living. For example- I recognized the social dynamics I was in, and the power that I had over others, slightly more than I did before; this caused me to push back on causing others to feel bad for themselves or me, as I would always do (highly manipulative). While I have always been an empathetic person, after a few experiences then I became more in-touch with my emotions- ESPECIALLY other peoples’ emotions. To be honest, now I’m almost more worried about other people than I am myself- I’ve always cared for others, but not as much as I do now.
The last time I took LSD, I took HALF of what I did before- and this time I was alone, I usually wasn’t.
I almost went into psychosis after standing in front of the bathroom mirror for over an hour while “having a conversation” with myself mentally- What happened? I stood there and stared myself in my eyes and facial features while the thoughts in my head weren’t just thoughts, but they were separate from each other- like I was having a conversation with different parts of my brain. Yes, you heard that right. It felt like different parts of my brain were talking to each other- like I “haven’t had this conversation” in a long time. Thinking back to it; it was truly Me, Myself, and I.
And whenever I closed my eyes while in the mirror, I would see bright RAINBOW colors pulsing and moving from left to right- lighting up, what I can only explain looked like “mitochondria”, things you would see microscopically under your skin- like they were illustrations from biology textbooks. Like I saw under my eyelids. And while the vibrant colors would be rotating and pulsing, I realized I would rock back and forth slowly (lean back and forth to the side slightly).
I want to emphasize that I still, months later, feel as if my brain/neural network is not the same. I barely find joy in many things, because I’m too aware of all that is going on- for example, I think my perspective when getting into a conflict/conversation isn’t only based on the conversation or my experiences, but just as much based on the other people and how they feel or will feel after I say/get what I need to say/get.
I’m much more open-minded, and that’s because I went into these experiences with the RIGHT INTENT.
I strongly do NOT recommend taking this.
LSD is NOT something to fuck around with..
This is the first time I opened up about this: Thank you for reading, & I hope you’ve learned something.
I appreciate all responses, short & long.. AYO?