Beyond Lust: If you've ever wondered what men remember between the sheets. My honest reflections.
Looking back at all these years, I realised something. I've been intimate with six women and shared intimate massage experiences with five more. I'm not writing this to flex, keep score or anything like that. Honestly, it doesn't matter to me. Every woman I met brought out a different side of me, but one thing stayed the same. I always enjoyed making them feel desired. This isn't me saying I was perfect every time. I was not. It's just an honest reflection of how I felt in those moments, what I learned from those women, and the kind of lover I slowly became.
My first time was with a mature Tamil woman in Bangalore. She asked if her tummy is big and if she needs exercise. I couldn't tell much because I was in awe of her curves, stretch marks, skin. Somehow that made it way more intimate. I was clearly inexperienced and awkward. She wasn't. She pretty much took control of everything from that point onwards. Looking back, I think she unknowingly taught me my biggest lesson, that attraction isn't about perfection or physical. It's about appreciating a woman exactly as she is and being completely present in the moment.
The Chennai woman I met, probably made me realize how much I enjoy the teasing and the build-up. She asked to unhook her blouse and she even taught me how to do it. She wore a saree in front of me after getting naked. She was teasing me the whole time. She sat on my thigh while riding so I got access to her yummy perfect little breasts to suck. When she left, she smiled and said, "I'm not done with you yet." Looking back, I think I enjoyed making her feel desired just as much as everything that came after.
Then the Delhi woman brought out another side of me. I told her to blow me while I stand and she sat on couch. Then I made her kneel down for me and blow my cock. She made everything slow and intentional. It didn't feel like a casual hookup at all. We actually talked a lot too. She had amazing ass so I wanted to see it while we fuck. So we tried reverse cowgirl. Looking back, I realized confidence and trust can completely change the way two people experience each other.
The Gujarati hotwife made me discover a totally different side of myself I didn't even know existed. At one point her husband stepped out of the room and the whole vibe changed. She wanted something rougher and more dominant. I flipped her, put my cock inside and banged the shit out of her in prone bone position. It was so kinky. I didn't even know that side of me existed until that moment. Looking back, I wasn't chasing roughness itself. I was discovering how mutual chemistry can bring out a completely different energy.
The Tamil hotwife made me realize how much I enjoy exploring together. I pulled her onto my lap, gently caressed her breasts, and kissed her neck from behind, breathing in her scent. Then I saw it, her incredible ass. One of the best I've ever seen. I knelt down and kissed it like I was worshipping it. I wanted to try something new, so I told her to lie on her back facing me. I put my cock in her mouth and started face fucking her. I'm average down there, but she took it all in, and it was hot for both of us. It was the first time I tried that. I wanted her ass again, so I started drilling her in prone bone, my favorite position. When I came on her ass, she told me it was her first time trying that and it felt great. Looking back, what stayed with me wasn't just trying something new. It was the trust, curiosity and comfort we shared that made both of us enjoy exploring those moments together.
The spa experiences taught me that my fascination with intimacy starts long before sex. People assume spa's are just about the 'extra'. For me that's not really the point. I genuinely enjoy massages. When one of my masseuse removed my underwear and gave me the best balls massage I got so far. It was heavens. Another masseuse, even helped clean me up in the shower and we ended up sitting in the jacuzzi talking about random life stuff. I've practiced giving massages with a couple of women I've known and they told me it felt really good. That made me weirdly proud. Looking back, I think I enjoy making a woman relax, feel comfortable and enjoy the moment just as much as the moment itself.
Thanks for reading.
~ Kinky Thamizhan