u/anaheimthrow

I have yet to take the plunge but I want to try sucking dick really bad when I get horny. I’ve tried to meet up with some guys to jack off and it happened one time with a BBC but I had no idea it wouldn’t happen again. I got in his car, he had his dick out and oiled, I got him hard, reached over with my right hand and stroked his big cock! He came really quick and I played with his thick cum and spread it around his cock, then he stroked my cock and I came, we cleaned up and I never saw him again. The more I watch porn and see big dicks, specifically BBC’s, the more I want to try sucking dick and try cum. I get post nut clarity but still find myself tempted to try. I’ve been sort of trying to meet someone who understands I don’t like men at all, but for some reason I’m attracted to big cock. I’m married and have kids and recently have been trying to explore. No idea what to do or how I’ll feel if I take the plunge! I have no want to have sex or have anything up my ass and most people I talk to bottom and want me to have sex with them. Idk how to describe it because I’m horny, but I want to touch a cock and suck it, but I also want to cum. The one experience I had made me feel nothing until I got horny again, what do I do?!

Down here visits from SoCal looking for a BBC to play with. It’ll be my first time, but I’m looking to explore and try new things. I can host at my hotel or do public or car play.