Two widows one lesbian (F44)
A little over one year ago i was widowed. It happened unexpectedly so the shock was obviously big but thats mot the point of this post thats a different discussion. Long story short is, it really hit me and took a huge toll on me. I havent been myself since and completely shut off and distanced myself from everyone and everything. Just emptiness and grief. That also effected me as a mom and i think i was a pretty miserable one during that time. I told myself life couldnt continue like this so i tried to change and improve. I started going to this widow support group. And it definetely helped me and i have been much better and am still getting much better thanks to it.
Enough of the sad stuff now to the real point. In that support group i met this woman. She is widowed as well. I noticed her looking at me a few times and she looked interested. After one of the sessions she came up to me and we got to know each other. She was very kind and chill. And we were getting along really well from the beginning and vibes only got better the more we talked and spend time together. Se over time we became friends in that group and also privately. I noticed already before that she was interested in me romantically or sexually or whatever. We were chatting about our sex and love lifes as widows. And thats when she told me she is bi and that she really likes me and if i had any interest. Now i never considered myself into women sexually (until now i guess haha) but i was never opposed to it and my whole life i was definitely not opposed to trying at least. And she was really attractive even with being a bit older and she was just such a nice and good person i kinda couldnt say no and i agreed to go on a ''date'' if you want to call it that way. After becoming a widow i never ever wanted to date a man or ever have sex with another man because form,e it felt like cheating. So the moment kind of felt right to try a woman. And after a terrible year she was one of the few bright spots in my life and it just felt like the right thing to do. We went out to dinner and maybe have a few drinks after. It all was super good and during the dinner we went to the bathroom. You know the typical womans bathroom visit we always take together haha. Except this was more and we kissed. And a few kisses eventually turned intoa makeout session. Im gonna admit during that moment i was SOAKED and probably havent been that wet since my wedding night. That evening we ended up at her place and we had sex. Two widows having lesbian sex. And i must admit i fucking loved it. She was so good. It was definitely not her first time with a woman she was definitely experienced already but wow was she good. The sex was unbelievable. And for me kt was all so knew and different it was very exciting alos learning new stuff because sex with a woman is completely different than sex with a man. Anyways that evening and that night was special for me. It made feel something i havent felt in a long time. In case you wonder were not really dating but we are having these ''dates'' more often these days. And if im being honest i may even feel some butterflies in my stomach when being with her or thinking about her haha.
Anyways this was just me putting this out there because i would love to share this with someone in private but I'm a scared and too shy to tell anyone but i just needed to get this out. If you made to here i hope you liked it !!