Ethylbromazolam help?
hey all. i recently stopped being able to get Clobromazolam/Phenazolam ("Clobro" from here on) and i started desperately seeking an alternative. I was taking 1mg 3-4x a day for about a year. Suddenly, the only thing I could find was Ethylbromazolam. Bromazolam was what I was using before Clobro, so I did some reading into Erhyl and came to the conclusion that the strength should be slightly lower than, but similar to Bromazolam. So I obtained 250mg of powder and some 5mg/ml solution. Starting with the premade solution, it just didn't feel right. The first impression I got was that it felt like gabapentin or phenibut, which is a feeling i strongly dislike. perhaps a more universal comparison would be that I feel feverish all the time, like my skin is warm and my body aches. This made no sense to me as no RC benzo has ever produced such an effect. But the weird feeling faded for the most part, leaving me with a solution & powder that just confuses me.
It's keeping me out of withdrawals, mostly, I think. But, since I still have some Clobro left, I keep dipping back into the Clobro because it's as if there's a component in the Ethyl missing. Like it keeps me from getting the shakes and seizure feeling, and it allows me to sleep much more consistently and restfully compared to Clobro alone, but I still feel other withdrawal symptoms and extremely heavy body sensations, which make every fiber of my being feel like i NEED to dose more Clobro. mostly due to nausea and headaches. those are classic benzo withdrawal symptoms for me, but it's always accompanied by heavy shaking. this isn't the case right now.
Why is this happening? Ethylbromazolam is a benzo just like any other and 5mg is plenty high of a dose (I've taken up to 15mg with no noticeable effect and the same "need" to take Clobro). have i gotten myself into another "clam situation" where my tolerance was too high for ANY other benzo because i was eyeballing clonazolam doses and ended up in the hospital for 2 weeks with seizures and lost a year of memory? I kept my doses of Clobro at or below 1mg to avoid this, I'm really scared. I only have a few ml left of 2mg/ml Clobro and then all I'll have is the premade 5mg/ml solution and the solution i made out of powder that should be slightly higher than 5mg/ml. Both solutions produce the same effect btw.
This has to be in my head, I keep telling myself, but how the fuck do I get it out of my head? if I'm not shaking, and if I can sleep comfortably for 6 hours straight without waking up sick, then it HAS to be working. but then I wake up a bit and start feeling nauseous, start feeling that gabapentin-like "body load", and a few minutes after waking up my body is fiending for Clobro. I'm terrified of what happens when I run out. I haven't been able to force myself to take *just* the Ethyl for 2 days or so to get an idea.
I'm sorry, this is a complicated question and I'm not even sure there's an answer. I just want to know if anyone else has had any similar experiences with Ethylbromazolam, especially switching from Clobromazolam.
Honestly? I just want my Clobromazolam back. But I have to make this work.