[f4A] Feeling stuck in my bimbofication….
So I’m at what you might call a pretty *advanced* level of bimbofication. I’m probably already what a lot of aspiring bimbos would consider *goals*: modest 535cc implants bringing me to a DDD cup, nose job, lip lift, jaw/chin sculpting, 5cc lips, filler and botox all over, low body fat, tan, bleach blonde, makeup skills and bimbo wardrobe. You can check my profile to see pics. I have also had a pretty successful career doing porn and sex work, though been on hiatus for a couple years.
I been feeling stuck in a couple ways. First is that I keep oscillating between feeling comfortable with the level I’m at and other times wanting to take my bimbofication further. I often consider going all out and aspiring to being one of the famous top-tier extreme bimbos, like Alicia Amira — a serious possibility I might explore. Rarely, I’ll even think about de-bimbofying myself, though that’s usually pretty fleeting.
The other big way I feel stuck is that I’ve kinda become a terminal gooner in the past couple years. Despite being hot and having no trouble pulling guys or girls I’m attracted to, my main sexual outlet the past couple years has been edging myself for hours to porn and chats, literally getting dressed up just to play with myself. I’ve spent waaayyyy too much money on toys and other goon aids. Even when chatting with people from gooner groups about the details, even they’re shocked about my tendencies. I’ve even flirted with building a gooncave set up. I feel like I should be redirecting my sexual energy to being an irl slut, like maybe I’d be happier that way, but whenever I get horny, all I want to do is pull out the lube and open all the screens I can to overstimulate myself for hours.
I have posted in this group before and ghosted on people which I apologize for — it’s part of the goon and shame cycles I’ve been stuck in. However, this time is different cuz its my first time posting from main, because at the very least I’m committed to being open about being realistic about this part of myself and treating our conversations as having real potential rather than. I’ve chatted with some lovely people from here that I would love to reconnect with if you’re open.
I’m not really sure what I’m looking for with this post, maybe just recognition and connection. Feel free to DM whatever, but here’s some ideas:
- Talking through my issues and helping problem solve my way forward
- Seeing if we might be a good fit and if there’s a way forward together in a bimbofication relationship
- Sharing about how intense my gooning habits got
- Encouraging me towards a particular lifestyle you’d like to see me pursue, whether that’s extreme bimbofication, shifting my gooning habits to being an irl slut, a future together, your personal bimbo goonette, or even committing to becoming an even more terminal gooner
- Fantasizing about, planning, or roleplaying a future lifestyle for me
At the very least, you can imagine that how porn-brained I am has made me very *open* to most kinks, so don’t hold yourself back with what you send me — feel free to be degrading, start off in a character, or kick off with wild kinks 😇