Straight guys don’t think about other guys cocks
I realized through a conversation with friends that straight guys don’t think about other guys cocks. Once that realization hit that I was different I was able to accept it a bit more. I think that first hurdle for me was accepting I might be. Once it was gone the world was open. I wasn’t ashamed of porn I liked. I wasn’t discrete straight I was curious. I wasn’t stopping myself from looking at guys differently.
That’s how I met my first mature bear top that taught me what I wanted.
We were friends before and I found him online and started yapping anonymously. We jerked off together. Shared porn. Talked about what I was liking and not liking. He was really really understanding and patient about things. He wanted to meet. I resisted but eventually gave in. I told him I would meet him at a bar for drinks.
The plan was I would be there and he wouldn’t know it was me he was meeting. I would text him what color shirt I was in and drink I had in front of me. He showed up looking around. Saw me and since he knew me he came over and said hello. I got up and went to the restroom and said what am I waiting for? I texted him my shirt color and drink and walked back to the bar. He checked his phone and then looked up and smiled. We went to my place and he let me edge and worship his cock all night. He talked dirty just like he always has in our sessions and I felt so good. I told him I wanted my first load all over me and he fucking delivered it. I laid down on the bed and he straddled my chest and jerked off on the tip of my tongue until he came on my chest, chin, mouth, lips, tongue, nose, left eye, forehead, and hair. Then he told me to not move. I sat there with cum all over me as he started to suck me off. The smell and taste of him as he did it. I was hooked. It’s been 3 years. We are still dating and I’m so thankful I didn’t rush anything when horny.