I (25F) gave my cousin (24M) a bj multiple times.
Like the title says: I (F, age 25 at that time) have given my cousin (M, age 24 at that time) multiple blowjobs already.
It began last year in July, when we were sharing a hotel room and bed for two on a family event. We just stayed awake for hours and began playing simple things like truth or dare out of boredom, getting more and more unhinged. We got off simultaneously, I dared him to show me his dick while at it. He then dared me to give him a handjob, and later, a blowjob. He ended up cumming on his hand. The next morning, he wanted to forget about all of it and I knew I should too, but I couldn’t really stop thinking about it.
The next times we met, we‘d almost always eventually get into a similar situation. It never went further than me giving him head, tho.
A few months ago, he then texted me that he wanted us to stop, and we agreed to cover it up and not tell anyone about it.
Now while I want to respect his boundaries, I know I wouldn’t mind another accidental session or sth. I still sometimes go off thinking about that shared-bed night. Feeling guilty yet tempted.