u/bordeaux_velvet___

Im a trans man that engages in force fem as a SH reduction/replacement (i won't be elaborating unless you actually want to be gentle talking to me about how "wrong" it is and how I shouldn't hurt myself period, dysphoria and the world we live in now is extremely hard to live with, and at the end of the day its better than what I used to do). I really dislike that a lot of forcefem/bimbo stuff has permanent effects but I do wanna cross that line. I just hate that I dont have a "lifeline" back when play is done. I hate the hangover-y feeling afterwards too. I cant find a dom that quite suits my needs, absolutely have had zero fortune in dating, and I wouldnt mind solo play if I could practise good aftercare for myself. Ive tried suggestion erasers and I have *A* aftercare file but I feel like i either need to commission a new one or like its not quite enough for what im wanting now versus back when I commissioned it.

I feel like im at a loss. The world is so hard to live in and I wish I didnt have this fetish to begin with, but here we are...

I dabble in force fem and crossdressing with an interest in bimbofication and hypnotism to fully delve deep into the persona Ive created and I really want to be able to make my real self go "dormant" during play, but I dont like a lot of the pre-made content out there that's like "this is permanent!" "Your old self is gone for good!" because I really dont want to detransition, essentially, for fantasy. But I get off on crossing the line and I just wish I had a play partner or tist I can trust to bring me back? As a trans man this is a big coping mechanism for some residual dysphoria and I just want to feel safe facing some of these feelings and going into different trance. Some pre-made stuff is okay, and honestly I rly enjoy listening to hypnosis more than reading it for the meditative aspect, but I really would like to have a more unique experience and a trusted hypnotist to be able to bring me back to myself even after going very very deep into the mindset of my persona. Is that even possible or would people just take advantage of me? I dont know. But I just wanted to shoot a shot here i guess.