I’ve sexualized “mom insults” and mom-son dynamics to a point where I secretly get off on it
Throwaway for obvious reasons.
This is hard to admit, but I need to get it off my chest. Over the past couple of years I’ve somehow rewired my brain around mom-son stuff and mother-related insults, especially the crude ones like “teri maa ki” and similar slurs. What started as hearing them in arguments or banter has turned into something I actively enjoy on a sexual level.
I catch myself lingering on it. When someone throws a mom insult my way, instead of getting angry, there’s this rush of humiliation that goes straight south. I’ve started putting myself in situations where it’s more likely to happen — joking around with friends or in certain online spaces, steering conversations so they end up saying shit like “what would you do to my mom?” or worse. I act like it’s all funny on the surface, but internally I’m getting exactly what I want: the degradation and the twisted mom-son fantasy playing out.
It’s gone beyond just hearing the words. I’ve fully sexualized the idea of the mom-son relationship in a really fucked up (and arousing) way. The humiliation aspect is huge for me now. Part of me feels ashamed that I’m engineering these moments for my own kink, but another part gets off on how pathetic it feels to secretly crave it.
I don’t know if this is common or if I’ve just gone down a weird porn rabbit hole too far. I’m not looking for judgment, just… somewhere to say it out loud. Has anyone else turned something so taboo into a core part of their fantasies? How do you deal with it when the line between “funny banter” and private kink starts disappearing?
Thanks for reading if you made it this far.