Introducing Myself [F] | Submission as Devotion
Hi there! 😊✨
I would like to introduce myself to this space. I find it very cool that it exists and I'm excited to see what members share here.
I am 29, a woman and I live in the USA. I have been a long time spiritual practitioner, exploring various frameworks and traditions since I was a teenager - including witchcraft, hoodoo, more new age style practices, personal deity work and a bit of demon summoning some years back. I love to see myself and the world through a mystical lens. I'm also drawn to consciousness work and manifestation work. I consider manifestation work to be magic by another name.
I've recently been exploring my sexuality on a deeper level, even while celibate for a number of years. This has definitely been a journey a long time in the making, but I feel I am finally approaching a synthesis that is right for me - one where my interest in a D/s relationship and my submissive leanings are helping me open to a deeper relationship with divinity, and even help me pave a Priestess path to help others.
I would like to share a journal entry that I wrote this morning. It's a bit rambly, but I felt every word. I'm interested in finding others who feel similarly to me. I am excited to begin exploring this synthesis through ritual and conversation, alongside my current focus on contemplation, reflection and solo erotic play.
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Surrendering to God. God will lead me, showing me the way to true fulfillment. To my heart's fulfillment. God, who lives in my heart, who guides me through my heart. Is my heart My God? I should let my heart lead me. And let my mind and actions follow after.
I feel this sense of ease and happiness when I imagine surrendering to God. To being led, without having to worry over every detail. No worry about anticipating what I cannot see.
Is God a good Dom? Am I meant to serve God? That feels so good. Am I meant to serve my heart? That feels so exciting and worthwhile. My heart is my guide and my teacher.
Every moment I can, I will sink deeper into my surrender. I will happily submit my will to my own heart's fulfillment. Why should I fight myself? Why I should I fight God? I will listen patiently and happily to what God whispers into my mind. I will let my heart move my body, direct my actions. This is the most lovely act of submission I can take right now.
To accept fully my desires and needs, and to accept fully their fulfillment. Unconditionally accept the fulfillment of my life's purpose. My life's purpose is to live from my heart. To live as God intended. God's intentions and my heart's desires are one and the same. The pulse of life that beats in God was placed in my heart to give me life.
I forgive any notion in me that thought otherwise. For thinking that my heart aching meant it can't be trusted. For thinking myself unfit for fulfillment. Because I am fit. Fit for being filled up with God's love, and shown how to best serve and receive through that love.
A deep satisfaction is already coming over me in allowing this process to unfold and change me. I am happy to be changed. To be shaped and molded with and by love. To be shaped and molded by God's presence in me. By the realization that God has always been within me. Patiently waiting for me to listen to my heart and indulge in the grace that is offered to me.
Happily I drink from that cup which is offered from this higher place of God's love. Of the truth that lives in me. A higher place within me, a heaven that was made for me. A heaven to which I belong.
I am happy to be human and rediscover myself through God and through love.
I draw my strength from my heart. Serving God gives me the strength and will to conduct myself in the ways fulfillment demands. These are delightful demands. My strength comes not from suppression, but embrace.
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Thank you for reading, and it's lovely to meet you! 💕 (Edited for formatting)