4 years of being a greedy fucktoy. no more free orgasms 🖤
hiii! i’ve been lurking here for a year or so and leave comments every now & then (new account for posting). rather than following the “good girls don’t cum” mantra, i’ve cum looking at this subreddit at least a couple times a week since I joined. it’s been 4 years since I actively practiced orgasm denial and I miss the desperation that comes with it, the constant dripping.
there have been multiple doms on here who inspired me to take the leap so thank you (I won’t be thanking you in 2 weeks)! I have a long list of daily & weekly good habits that could lose me points if I fail to complete them, bad habits that could lose me points if I do them, and much much smaller list that earns me points. in order to cum, I need 25 points which will take ~2 weeks if I do all my tasks with few misses. if I delay a few of the important tasks, I earn 24 hours of denial after i’ve earned enough points. if it proves to be too easy, I plan to either increase penalties or the number of points for an orgasm reward.
on top of working to earn my orgasms now, i’ve severely restricted access to my pussy because of how greedy i’ve been. if my pussy receives any pleasure at all, I have to wear a plug that increases in size based on how much pleasure I receive. in addition, I bought the research & desire deepthroat trainer today. any time I directly touch my pussy, i’ll be practicing my deep throating. I made 6 tiers. it will get increasingly intense and difficult the more pleasure I receive (still only edging bc duh), so I can train all my holes like a proper slut. 🖤 I even have a list of 16 punishments listed for when I fuck up: clit numbing, cold showers, doing my makeup just to ruin it during throat training,
humping only, and KT tape to name just a few.
i’m tracking everything on the obedience app, and will be logging everything so there’s no question whether i’ve earned it. even then, this reddit has taught me I don’t deserve it so maybe i’ll donate it…? 😅 maybe not though…I don’t want to be that good of a girl. I might provide occasional updates on here & am happy to share specifics on the accountability system I built!
if you made it this far, i’m impressed. to all the wonderful doms out there unknowingly (& knowingly) helping us discover ourselves — you deserve your flowers 💐