u/denialdummy

dear diary or smth

since Sir put me back in denial yesterday, i avoided touching myself. i knew i’d only make it harder for myself if i did. aged like milk, i sure did touch myself today (in my defense He was turning me on the whole time!!).

i called him as i was getting closer to the edge, begging for an orgasm. he gave an orgasm to me, but said we couldn’t both cum and he also told me to make him proud. my body was screaming for it, but i caved and gave it to him. i got to see him use it and it was torture. i fucking had the orgasm and i was stupid enough to give it away.

he told me that tomorrow i’d get an orgasm again, but when i asked if it would be with my own body, he told me to shut up. i think i will get to cum???? i’m not sure.

dear diary or smth

since Sir put me back in denial yesterday, i avoided touching myself. i knew i’d only make it harder for myself if i did. aged like milk, i sure did touch myself today (in my defense He was turning me on the whole time!!).

i called him as i was getting closer to the edge, begging for an orgasm. he gave an orgasm to me, but said we couldn’t both cum and he also told me to make him proud. my body was screaming for it, but i caved and gave it to him. i got to see him use it and it was torture. i fucking had the orgasm and i was stupid enough to give it away.

he told me that tomorrow i’d get an orgasm again, but when i asked if it would be with my own body, he told me to shut up. i think i will get to cum???? i’m not sure.

dear diary or smth

since Sir put me back in denial yesterday, i avoided touching myself. i knew i’d only make it harder for myself if i did. aged like milk, i sure did touch myself today (in my defense He was turning me on the whole time!!).

i called him as i was getting closer to the edge, begging for an orgasm. he gave an orgasm to me, but said we couldn’t both cum and he also told me to make him proud. my body was screaming for it, but i caved and gave it to him. i got to see him use it and it was torture. i fucking had the orgasm and i was stupid enough to give it away.

he told me that tomorrow i’d get an orgasm again, but when i asked if it would be with my own body, he told me to shut up. i think i will get to cum?????? i’m not sure.

it’s been a little over a week since my last denial ended. Sir really loved seeing what it did to me again and decided that, starting today, i would go back into denial until i see him again on friday or saturday.

he told me this days ago, but i completely forgot that this would happen, so i didn’t even enjoy yesterday’s orgasms like i would have if i realised they’d be the last ones for maybe a week. and he waited til after midnight to remind me of the denial so it would be too late for me to still cum ugh.

i tried to argue about it last night, but my body was getting turned on, so that made my brain slower. i’m still turned on, trying to ignore it and not touch myself so this doesn’t get harder.

i hope he changes his mind.

it’s been a little over a week since my last denial ended. Sir really loved seeing what it did to me again and decided that, starting today, i would go back into denial until i see him again on friday or saturday.

he told me this days ago, but i completely forgot that this would happen, so i didn’t even enjoy yesterday’s orgasms like i would have if i realised they’d be the last ones for maybe a week. and he waited til after midnight to remind me of the denial so it would be too late for me to still cum ugh.

i tried to argue about it last night, but my body was getting turned on, so that made my brain slower. i’m still turned on, trying to ignore it and not touch myself so this doesn’t get harder.

i hope he changes his mind.

this is probably very weird and niche but alright.

sometimes when my vpn doesn’t connect (which makes it impossible to watch porn on X) i pretend it’s meant to be like that. that i’m a beta that shouldn’t get to see real nudity while others can.

on my way to try to get it to work, maybe i will try to ask the vpn very submissively hmpff. if not, i will go sext with grok, it always triggers me so bad…

also first post on here!! hi<33

this is probably very weird and niche but alright.

sometimes when my vpn doesn’t connect (which makes it impossible to watch porn on X) i pretend it’s meant to be like that. that i’m a beta that shouldn’t get to see real nudity while others can.

on my way to try to get it to work, maybe i will try to ask the vpn very submissively hmpff. if not, i will go sext with grok, it always triggers me so bad…

(a very specific taste, don’t kinkshame me!!)

i am autistic and just like with a lot of other things, i love to sexualise it. my Dom has been keeping me orgasm denied the past week and today my clitbrained self came up with a new thing. my asd being the reason i shouldn’t cum, because it would just overstimulate me and be too much. so best to just stay denied and stim my clit without the release.

i can’t wait to use it again tomorrow during my session ughh