I ran out and am waiting for appointment... Went backwards
I feel ashamed...
I knew when I experienced puking/diarrhea and the crazy insomnia I never wanted to touch another Better Now pill. Unfortunately it wasn't enough of a bad time for me not to go back to it when I ran out of strips.
I have now used about 500mg to keep W/D away until tomorrow in which I will get my script filled. I am scared because I also have work tomorrow, how long do I have to wait before taking the strip to prevent precipitated withdrawal?
I have seen mixed reviews on the topic and I know once I wake up in the morning I will be involuntarily tearing up, yawning, hot flashes, and fortunately I don't think I will be puking this time, but they come on so quickly for me and my last dose was this morning at.... 12PM - my appointment is 9:35 am and I'll probably have to wait a hour or so to get script filled.
Any suggestions? I feel so embarrassed that I swore I would never touch the freaking gas station pills and I feel like a complete failure because my birthday was going to be 3 years sobriety and one kava shot made my freaking addict brain orgasm and I haven't stopped since.... Gosh I hate myself right now.