I 26F have been thinking about my 62M bio dad
So I want to word this as clearly as I can cause I 26F have been thinking about my 62M bio dad
I’ve always thought about being sexual with my family since teenage years even had my mom catch me watching porn on the family computer. She came home early from work that day and I was waiting for her to leave cause as a horny teenager you’d start masturbating as soon as they’d leave the house. I went to my moms room and had one plan. I saw her vibrator, purple and not too hidden in her drawer and wanted to know what it would feel like, I masturbated with a q-tip and I wanted to know what made my mom want the purple rabbit. I cleaned it before and after trying to use it but I was dry and it was bigger. There was a shadow on the window of her bedroom right outside the patio and I panicked cause someone was right outside the front door! The keys start jiggling around and I have 2 possibilities of who it might be. My mom or sister. I quickly put the toy back and leaped to the living room. It was my mom! I was She came inside noticed the computer
“Name what are you watching?”
“Porn”
“Why”
“Cause I’m horny”
I closed it pretty quickly and she asked about viruses on the computer I told her “it was google images”. It was just a type of cartoon porn gif so. She knew I had used it too. She tried saying those toys in there are hers and I tried to act casual saying “no what toys?” and she gave me probably rather an annoyed look saying “you know which ones” that was that ,but the rare sexual dreams I had about her that always made me feel fuzzy around her the day of the dream.
I’ve seen pictures of him “in his prime” either graduating or photos around grandmas house of him younger with thick hair and his blue eyes are always a bonus. I’ve never tried to expose myself wearing short shorts or anything like that I lounge around in pjs. I basically flashed him once everything cause he was screaming at me so I stood up for myself and was screaming at him in the hallway fully nude having what he would call a “meltdown” he is a bad dad in my eyes but not in the way I’d like. He neglects my basic needs. For example the other day we both worked and I slept in late (my bf was over those days so we were sexually active and woke up later in the day to him ordering food for himself I walk out there and he’s already getting his shoes on and saying i ordered food if you want any get in the car. I’ve heard that before if ur not fast ur not gonna go. I put on shoes and rush my bf out to the car already running and backing out of the driveway. We get food and as usual I feel like a burden I don’t have my license so he takes me to and from work as it is so how can i expect him to love me more than just the inconvenience that he sees me as?
He’s the “grumpiest person he’s met” (his words) and a lot of the people i talk to about us arguing and fighting the way we do and a lot of them are like “ur dad needs a girlfriend.” I think about it and I have a boyfriend who loves me very much, but if I could I’d try to make a few moves with my dad. Yesterday I was so horny I wasn’t satisfied with my boyfriend I wanted him to cum in me and it’s hard for him to focus on staying hard. I was dropped off by father cause he still had to work that night it was roughly 7:45 and I went to my room where my bf was sleeping I only worked for a few hours so he only slept for 2 hours or so. I tried to wake him up and it was impossible so I went to my dad’s room laid on his bed and played with myself. I squirmed and bucked my hips on my finger playing away I moaned quietly and filled the air with my scent and came quickly I looked at my wet finger and wiped it on his pillow. I sniffed it too to make sure he could smell me too, he could.
Later that night me and the boyfriend playing with each other in the living room the thought of being caught turns us both on I was moaning hoping that my dad would hear me. It was late so we went to bed and woke up to my boyfriend fingering my still wet pussy, I don’t think I slept that night though. My boyfriend did and I went to my bathroom with my dildo and suctioned it to the wall that connects his bathroom and mine. I rode the dildo thinking about my dad and how close he was I let out a few moans and could hear the sloppy slaps of the toy I was leaning against the wall pounding my hole sucking my teeth and sighing. I came and went to bed. Woke to being fingered moaning loudly I really wanted to be heard, and didn’t realize my door was open kinda wide. But what I also didn’t know is that my dad was also awake with his door opened and probably absolutely heard me moaning cause I heard his door shut closed. If I could get advice he’s fairly stubborn but we have to fix our relationship somehow.
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