i think weed has ruined my life but i still want to smoke it
i am underaged and recently just got expelled from my school for smoking in a train bathroom on the way to a school excursion (a lot more to the story it’s very long) and this ended up in me losing 1 of my 2 friends. i started smoking last year and its just gone downhill from there, i have autism and adhd + a family history of drug abuse so safe to say im pretty addicted to it. i cant go a day without thinking about smoking and it makes me super irritable and i KNOW that i shouldn’t be doing it but i just want to so badly. i live in a area where weed is pretty much the norm and encouraged by people my age so no matter who i surround myself with its always a topic of discussion and its not like ive fallen victim to peer pressure because i legitimately want to smoke anyways 😭😭 idk what to do ive nearly been kicked out of home for this but all my mind wants to do is smoke even tho i know the consequences i may face idk it’s like i don’t care. does anyone know what i should do