u/gedimarnechale

Share your first sexual experience
At what age
With whom
And how was the experience

My friend and I have known each other since high school. We’re tight, same friend group, same apartment building for a while, the whole thing. His mom is 47. She’s always been cool, the “fun mom” type who didn’t care if we drank at her place as long as we were safe.
7 months ago I went over to drop off some of his belongings he left at my place. He wasn’t home. His mom was in the kitchen in a night suit, barefoot, hair messy from cleaning. We started talking, one thing led to another, and somehow we ended up on the couch. It wasn’t planned. It just… happened.
Since then it’s been regular. She texts me when my friend is not at home. Sometimes I go over late at night after he falls asleep in his own place. We’ve done it in her bed, the shower, once against the kitchen counter while dinner was still on the stove. She’s intense, experienced, and doesn’t hold back. She likes it when I call her by her name and when I leave marks she can hide under clothes.
I know it’s fucked up. If my friend ever found out it would destroy him and our entire friend group. I’ve tried telling myself I’d end it after the next time, then the next time after that. But every time she sends that “come over” text I go.
I feel like shit about it, but I also can’t stop. The sex is better than anything I’ve had with girls my age, and the secrecy makes it even hotter in a messed up way.
I don’t know what the hell I’m doing. Just needed to get this off my chest somewhere no one knows me.