After-Hours Self Service (disemboweling)
I push the apartment door shut with my hip and drop my bag on the floor. The second the lock clicks I already feel it , that low, restless heat that’s been sitting between my legs since lunch. My button-down is still tucked into my dress pants, flats kicking off one after the other as I walk straight to the bedroom. My skin is still warm from the day, and right now every inch of me feels oversensitive. I’m soaked. I can feel it every time my thighs brush. My panties are a mess and my nipples have been hard against the thin fabric of my bra for the last two hours of meetings.
I set my phone up on the dresser, angling it so it has a clear view of the bed, then hit record.
“Hey, baby,” I say, already undoing the top buttons of my shirt. The fabric slides off my shoulders, showing the smooth stretch of olive skin down my arms and the sharp line of my collarbones. “Long fucking day. I’m so wet it’s ridiculous. I’ve been thinking about this since like eleven this morning.”
I pull the button-down off and toss it, then unhook my bra. My nipples tighten even more in the cooler air, small, dark against my skin. I give them a quick squeeze for the camera, hissing a little at how sensitive they are, then shove my dress pants down and step out of them. Now I’m just in black panties that are visibly dark at the crotch, the thin fabric stretched over my narrow hips and the soft lower curve of my belly. I cup myself through the material and show the camera how slick it is.
“Look at that. I’ve been dripping since I left the office.”
I climb onto the bed, kneeling so my long torso and flat stomach are right in frame. The tanned skin of my midriff looks almost golden under the bedroom light. I hook my thumbs into the waistband of my panties and push them down just enough to bare most of my belly and the top of my mound. My navel sits neat and shallow in the middle of all that smooth skin, soft and inviting. I run two fingers around it in slow circles, then dip one fingertip inside and tug gently.
“Gonna open this up for you tonight,” I tell the phone, voice already a little breathy. “All the way. I want you to watch me pull everything out and fist myself until I come. Don’t worry, you know I heal fast. By morning there won’t even be a mark. Just a really good video for you.”
I press harder against my soaked panties with my other hand, grinding the heel of my palm against my clit while I keep playing with my navel. A soft, wet sound answers me. My nipples are aching now, tight little points that make me shiver every time the air moves across them. The long, lean line of my body feels electric, everything already so ready.
I smile at the camera, already flushed.
“Okay. Let me get these panties off and grab the knife. Be right back.”
I toss the black panties aside and grab the little craft knife from my nightstand drawer. It’s the same one I always use: short, sharp, easy to control. I settle back against the pillows so the camera has a perfect view of my bare stomach, then spread my legs a little wider. I’m dripping onto the sheets already. Every time I shift, I feel how swollen and wet I am.
“Okay, baby,” I murmur to the phone, voice low and thick. “Watch this.”
I pinch the soft skin of my navel between two fingers and pull it up gently, then set the tip of the blade right in the center of the innie. The first cut is shallow and careful. A thin line of red wells up immediately. The sting makes my clit throb. I keep going, working the knife in a slow circle, opening the hole wider, deeper. Blood runs down the curve of my belly in thin rivulets and pools in the hollow of my hips. I can smell it, sharp adn metallic, mixed with how turned on I am.
I set the knife aside and push my middle finger into the new opening.
It’s hot inside. Soft. The muscle gives under the pressure and then I’m past it, fingertip sliding against something slicker and more mobile. My own intestines, nestled comfortably in my abdomen. I moan out loud and push deeper, curling the finger, feeling the warm, living coils shift and slide around me as my finger glides across my own mesentery. My other hand drops between my legs and starts rubbing slow circles over my clit. I’m so wet the sound is filthy.
“Fuck… it’s so soft in there,” I tell the camera, breathless. “I can feel them moving. They’re ... they're so warm.”
I work a second finger in, then a third, stretching the navel hole until it’s a dark, glistening mouth. Blood and clear fluid make everything slippery. I start gently tugging. A shiny pink loop of small intestine slides out over my knuckles and rests on the lower curve of my stomach. It twitches. I laugh softly, almost giddy, and pull another section free, arranging the glistening ropes across my belly like I’m decorating myself.
The sight of my own guts lying wet and alive on my skin pushes me right to the edge. I rub my clit faster, two fingers still buried inside the open navel, gently stirring the organs that are still inside. The stretch, the heat, the visual. It’s too much.
“I’m gonna come,” I warn the phone, voice breaking. “I’m gonna come with my hand in my own guts”
The orgasm hits hard. My ruined navel clenches around my fingers, the spilled loops of intestine jump and tighten, and a fresh gush of wetness soaks my hand and the sheets. I keep rubbing through it, bloody, moaning, eyes locked on the camera even as my vision blurs. The healing has already started. I can feel the faintest itch at the edges of the cut, but I’m nowhere near done.
I pull my fingers out with a wet sound and look down at the small pile of my own intestines glistening on my belly. My nipples are so hard they ache. I’m still throbbing between my legs.
“One more,” I pant, reaching for the knife again to open myself wider. “I want my whole hand inside before I finish. Watch me, baby. This next part’s for you.”
I pick the knife back up and carefully enlarge the opening, cutting outward in short, controlled strokes until the hole is big enough. The blade burns as it goes, a bright, precise sting that makes my toes curl. Blood runs freely now, warm and slippery over my skin. Every new cut sends a sharp, painful, pulse straight down to my clit. I set the blade aside, lick my lips, and start working my hand in.
Four fingers first, then the thumb. The stretch is intense. It hurts in a deep, aching way that feels almost too big for my body, like I’m being opened from the inside out. My navel, or what’s left of it, spreads into a dark, wet circle that swallows my knuckles, then my palm. The pain blooms hot and wide across my lower belly, but underneath it is a thick, dizzying pleasure that makes my thighs shake. I push slowly, watching the camera the whole time, until I’m wrist-deep in my own belly. The heat inside is incredible, softer and wetter than anything else, living tissue sliding against my skin. My intestines coil and shift around my hand like warm, slick ropes. Every small movement sends overlapping waves of hurt and arousal through me.
“Fuck, baby... look,” I breathe, angling my body so the phone gets the full view. “I’m inside myself. All the way. It hurts so good...”
I close my fist and start moving. Short, deep fisting-punches. Each one is a heavy, internal thud that radiates outward in dull spikes of pain, followed immediately by a rush of heat between my legs. Slow stirring motions make the organs slide and drag against one another; the sensation is nauseating and electric at the same time. When I grab a thicker section and pull, the resistance is rubbery and intimate, a long, stretching burn as the loop slides free, then a sudden release that leaves me gasping and my chest heaving. The glistening rope of intestine lands across my hip with a wet slap. I keep going, another loop, then another, until a shiny pile of my own guts is spread over my lower belly and thighs. The empty space inside me feels huge, cold where the air touches, and every breath makes the open edges of the wound sting and throb.
I’m rubbing my clit with my free hand in tight, frantic circles. The dual sensation is overwhelming: the deep, aching fullness of my fist buried in my open abdomen, the sharp external sting of the stretched skin, and the bright, wet pleasure building in my pussy. My nipples are so tight they hurt. Every time my fist moves, a fresh thread of pain pulls through my core and turns immediately into another pulse of need.
“I’m so close again,” I tell the camera, voice breaking. “It hurts… it hurts and I’m gonna come with my whole fucking hand in my fucking guts”
The second orgasm crashes through me harder than the first. My belly clamps down around my forearm in a series of hard, involuntary spasms, each contraction a bright spike of pain that only pushes the pleasure higher. The spilled intestines jump and tighten on my skin. A fresh flood of wetness soaks my hand and the sheets as I cry out, hips bucking, the open wound flexing and burning with every wave. I keep fisting myself through it, punching deeper, the pain and the climax tangled so tightly I can’t tell them apart. One more slick loop pulls free under my hand and the extra stretch sends a final, shuddering peak through me.
When the waves finally slow I stay like that for a long moment, wrist-deep, guts spilled, chest heaving, feeling the deep, bruised ache inside the cavity and the softer, satisfied throb between my legs. The healing has already begun; a warm, itchy tingle spreads along the cut edges, knitting them slowly while the leftover pain still pulses in time with my heartbeat.
I smile at the phone, dazed and glowing.
“God… that was perfect. It hurt so much and I came so hard.”
I start the slow process of feeding everything back inside. Each coil I push back in wakes another dull flare of pain, but it’s quieter now, the soft gurgles and squelches as my warm intestines move back to their home. I pack them gently into place until my belly looks almost full again. The bleeding has slowed to a seep. By morning there will be nothing left but smooth skin and the memory of how completely I was opened.
I wipe my hands on the sheets, lean closer to the camera, and blow a soft kiss.
“Sending this to you as soon as I clean up a little. Hope you enjoy the show, babe.”
I leave the phone recording a few seconds longer while I lie back, one hand resting lightly over the closing wound, feeling the last deep aches fade into the warm itch of healing. My legs are still open, body loose, pussy still twitching with aftershocks. The last thing the video catches is the quiet sound of my breathing and the faint, wet shift of my guts settling as they begin to repair themselves.