To my Humble Lion,
Dear Mods, please allow me to leave this here. This is the only way I know para umabot tong message ko sakanya.
My Humble Lion,
Hi there. I am writing you this open letter kasi I have no more means to contact you. You’ve deleted your telegram account a few days ago, the only app I know to where I can leave you messages and stuff. I have a feeling na nakita mo yung recent posts ko sa Bicolanhoesgonewild looking for a Friend with Benefits or a Fuck Buddy here in Albay. I feel like I failed you again. I feel like you didn’t liked what you saw.
My Humble Lion, I know that you were aware naman na I liked you, but there are things na out of our control already. Ever since we reconnected 2 years ago, I have this weird feeling in me kapag nakakausap kita. Especially nung araw na nagkita tayo ulit. A feeling of both happiness and fear. Something that sparks a happy hormone knowing that I get to share random life updates, thoughts I never get to discuss to anyone besides you and sometimes those mild sexual teasing we both enjoy. There were times that I felt like we are something but everytime I try to discuss that with you, “Hindi pa yata ako ready.” “Career muna ang focus ko” “Natatakot kasi ako” are words I hear from you. May isang conversation tayo before to where I analyzed what you said. Natatakot ka na magtry tayo kasi hindi mo pa kaya magtiwala. Hindi mo ako kayang pagkatiwalaan. Something I understand given na you know all my sexcapades and adventures while you on the otherhand only had me as someone you fucked. I understand your doubts and fears. I’m sorry for all my imperfections, for all the things you don’t like about me, for all those naughty stuff i did that you didn’t like. I can’t change anything I did in the past. This is me, flawed and imperfect. Im sorry I don’t fit your standards. But I just want to let you know na I am still here, I am still a friend. We are still friends, aren’t we? Someone you can run to when life gets hard for you. It was our promise to each other. Papanindigan ko parin yun.
We might not end up trying to work things out between us because of our indifferences, but I still wish you the best. I hope one day, bigyan mo ng chance ang sarili mo magmahal because you deserve all the love. Hindi pwedeng ikaw lang palagi ang magbigay, allow people to give you something too. Allow people to enter your life and take care of you too. I hope this message reaches you Humble Lion. Palagi kang magiingat. You will always have a place in my life. Until next time, if destiny permits.
All my love, Regina. ✨