For context im 19, bisexual and still have my vcard and I have micropenis (2.5 inches) its because of my hypospadias, i read that it can affect penile growth and even semen (I have clear cum, and dont cum a lot) im also short. (4’10)
Everytime now when I open reddit I see pictures of penis minsan i get turned on, minsan naman i get so insecure. Umabot na sa point na pag bumibili ako ng eggplant iniimagine ko kung gano kaganda jakolin pag tite ko yun swerte mga taong kahit average lang para sakin.
It’s so hard kasi it really affects me rn since gusto ko din magkafubu or maybe a real relationship with a girl. Pero i fear im not gonna satisfy then. Willing naman siguro magsuot ng strap on at kahit di na ako magcum basta masatisfy siya. Ang hirap kasi its something that I really can’t cantrol if may surgery lang yan kahit million pa, gagawin ko.
I try to be confident about it like its unique tapos tawag ko pa tite ko vienne sausage just to poke fun at it but sometimes when I read stuff here or see photos, the thoughts get so loud. Its consuming me kasi I remember when I was younger nung parang puberty pa lang sabi ko paglaki ko girls will like me and i’d have sex everyday. And now that I realize how small I am, its hard.
It prevents me from pursuing girls since obviously if I do get into a relationship and then we get to that level na what if iwanan ako once she finds out my size? and ang hirap naman kausapin ang girl about sexual stuff since some girls don’t wanna do it right away, some girls want to wait tapos ang hirap i bring up ang sexual topics kasi gusto ko naman maging respectful. I usually like the prettiest girl in the room pa.
I’m a good person naman, my female friends can vouch for me. How emphathetic I am, how much of a gentleman I am, how good my sense of humor is, how understanding I am, and how much of romantic I am in a world full of lust.
Guess you can’t have it all right?