Haram/muslim last
“Ganito pala kasarap… kaya pala ang daming naa-addict.”
Those were literally her words after that first moment together.
Hearing that from someone experiencing everything for the first time honestly made the whole night feel unreal.
Anyway.
After that, we just stayed there for a while under the cold aircon, catching our breath while wrapped around each other.
But the tension never really disappeared.
Every few minutes, magtititigan lang kami tapos mapapangiti ulit.
Eventually she whispered:
“Parang gusto ko pa…”
I looked at her and asked softly:
“Sure ka?”
Then she looked at me seriously.
“May condom ka ba?”
“Meron sa cabinet.”
So I stood up to grab it while she stayed on the bed watching me. By that point, wala na talaga yung hiya between us.
When I got back, we started kissing again almost immediately.
Slow at first.
Then gradually becoming more intense.
She looked beautiful that night. Messy hair, flushed cheeks, oversized shirt half falling off her shoulder while she kept avoiding eye contact every time nahuhuli ko siyang nakatitig sakin.
I held her close, kissed her neck slowly, and tried to calm her down because I could still feel how nervous she was underneath everything.
Every now and then she’d grip my arm tighter whenever things became overwhelming.
“Okay ka lang?” I kept asking.
She’d nod quietly every time.
At one point she climbed on top of me again and just stayed there, forehead against mine, smiling shyly between kisses.
It wasn’t even about going all the way anymore.
Parang mas naging intimate yung pagpipigil.
Every time things got too heated, one of us would laugh, pause, then kiss each other again like we were trying to slow everything down before it got out of control.
I asked her one more time:
“Gusto mo ba talaga?”
She nodded.
But after a few seconds, I just smiled and said:
“No. Not tonight.”
For some reason, parang lalo lang siyang nainis at kinilig sabay.
So instead, we just stayed there kissing, teasing each other, and enjoying the moment without rushing anything.
After nun, we lay there quietly under the aircon, exhausted and laughing at how crazy the whole night felt.
Then eventually…
another round of kisses.
Still intense.
Still messy.
Still intimate.
But despite everything, we never actually went all the way. The condom box stayed unopened the entire night.
Half past 3 AM na when we finally noticed her phone.
Ang daming missed calls from her mom.
That’s when reality slowly started kicking in again.
So I told her:
“Hatid na kita.”
“Sige… pero hanggang 7/11 lang ha.”
Then she laughed softly before adding:
“Kapag nakita ka nila baka ipakasal ka sakin.”
By the time we reached the 7/11, medyo tahimik na kami pareho.
Parang pareho kaming pagod but neither of us wanted the night to end yet.
Before getting out, she suddenly looked at me and smiled.
“Thank you.”
Then after a few seconds she added:
“By the way… I might not see you again.”
Napatingin ako sakanya.
“Bakit?”
“Ipapadala na ko nila mama sa Mindanao next week, nakapangako na ko dun”
Then she smiled again.
“Thank you for this night.”
After that she got out of the car, fixed her hijab, waved goodbye, and walked away toward the streetlights.
Wala nang next time