
u/justarandomlostgirl

So pathetic that even the owner who raped me since 18 and pimped me out discarded me for my mum
F28 I have been owned since my 18 birthday and feel lost without my owner
My stepdad claimed my body the night I turned 18, and since then he owned me inside out. I feel lost without an owner, how do I cum if I am not allowed by a man??? How long do I stay denied? How often should I do pain, Masters please help me, I am lost without a male deciding for me.
Would you date a girl with a body count over 500?
After years of being used and shared by the same master, I started looking to date again. I have met multiple men but they all seem to want the same thing and disappear. I am always being honest and I say I acted as a whore for the past 10 years and there is a huge chance to bump into someone who have used me constantly.
I never kept a chart, but I estimated I have fucked between 500-700 men at least, at my master request.
Should I send this to my abuser ?
Living my life as a slave, wasn’t about the destination, but about the journey, and mine it is filled with love, hate, hardship, humiliation,pain, tears, denial and lots of cum. True story- part I
I had a boyfriend, high school sweethearts and perfect bonding, but something was missing, there was something I was craving, and I was craving bad. I never wanted to have it, I was shy, proud and embarrassed,yet, my cunt was getting wet whenever I saw a loving scene in a movie.
I had it planned, after my 18 birthday, I would go on a trip with him, and let him love me.
Sweet story, what came is far from what I was expecting.
On my 18 birthday, I woke up to blow myself some candles, my mom was passed out drunk and my friends were non existent. I opened my bedroom door, and there was him. With a cake, champagne, and candles. I was not forgotten after all, my mom’s boyfriend was in the door ready to celebrate me. He was one of the many she brought home, but first one who seemed decent.
I jumped into his arms, and I felt something strong, he smelled my hair and wished me happy birthday. We sat down, had a glass of champagne and, unexpectedly I loved his company. We drank some glasses and things started getting dizzy. I was getting drunk. Out of nowhere, words came out of my mouth, asking him to sleep with me.
He was surprised, but happy, he hugged me strong and we went to bed. The sheets were covering us, yet, I felt his hand touching my skin. It was electric, powerful yet so wrong.
I acted like I already fell asleep, and when his hand slid down between my legs he felt how wet I am.
“What a dirty little whore” these are the words I will remember forever. I still had my eyes closed, but with my hand, I placed over his circling my clit.
“Do you want a birthday gift?” I nodded, that’s all I could say or do. His hands went faster and faster until I could feel a powerful orgasm building up. Yet, they stopped. Frustrated I turned to him and went on top of him. I started kissing him hungry and feeling his rock hard cock. It was so wrong and stupid but felt so good.
He turned me around, and removed his pants. His big cock was at my entrance. I was ready for it, when I felt him slide… in my ass. In the heat of the moment, I didn’t care, I wanted to have sex, the good part will follow, is what I thought.
My ass was breaking me, hurting and burning, but first time hurts is what I always heard.
With a last strong pound he spread his cum in my ass and then removed his cock. It was hurting, painful, yet feeling empty.
His hand went down on my clit and started rubbing hard. I had the most powerful orgasm ever experienced before I fell asleep in his arms.
When I woke up in the morning, I wasn’t sure if it was a dream, a stupid one or if it actually happened. I got out of my room and in my kitchen.
He was standing there talking with her like a normal day. I looked at him and he seemed totally unbothered. Did I really had a dream?
The rest of the day went on , but I could not take the shame out of my mind, either I am a whore for sleeping with my actual stepdad or a whore for dreaming about it.
The following nights nothing weird happened. Until one day, when I was falling asleep when I heard the door locking from inside. I looked around and there he was, standing powerful, masculine, ready.
He came next to me and thanked me for being such a good little whore and keeping our secret. Same thing happened, he fucked my ass, I cum on his hand and we went to sleep. At this point I was desperate to lose my virginity, but he whispered to me that the moment will be worth it.
Weeks went by, and I was letting him use my ass more and more often.
One night I woke up from sleep just to feel something in my ass, not painful, just slightly uncomfortable. I touched it and it felt like some metal thing. I removed it, what I didn’t know back then but was my first butt plug. I went in the kitchen to see him alone. “show me your ass” he commanded. I did turn around and showed him my empty ass. His big arms grabed me and threw me over the kitchen table. HE took off my panties and started slapping my ass hard and painful until tears roll down my cheeks .
“Don’t ever remove my gifts”I am sorry, I didn’t know is what I could say through my crying. When he was done my ass was so red I could barely sit. I decided to leave out of this situation.
I moved in with my boyfriend that afternoon and we started making love. Something was missing… his power, his dominance… I couldn’t. I couldn’t give him what belonged to my stepfather. I stopped him just before he entered, and went back home.
I wanted him to be angry, to ravage me , to punish me again, but he ignored me. Like I didn’t exist.
That night I waited for him in my room, yet he never came. I went on to see him sleeping. Was he hating me?
The next morning I took my butt plug, I wanted to show him I was a good girl, yet nothing was getting his attention.
“You left, and once you leave, you can’t come back.” I cried, I wanted him so much and I fucked up so bad.
That night, I spent it crying. He came to my room and gave me a steel device. Never seen it before and wasn’t aware what it is.
“Do you really want to be mine?” Yes, 1000% only his cock was in my mind. Then, you will stay locked. You are a dirty slut, you cannot be trusted. From now on, you won’t cum, unless I am here and allow it to, the key will stay with me. With that, the metal was locked leaving my needy pussy behind.
“I decided I want to marry your mum, she is a good slut.” Hearing him saying this made me get on my knees and beg, don’t do it, please, I need you.
The wedding day was the hardest of my life. I was standing with the other 10 guests attending , still locked in chastity after 2 weeks, and horny as never before. I was heartbroken and wanted to disappear. After saying the vows he took me in a tiny room. You have two choices: you move out tomorrow, and we both continue our life, or you get down and you suck your now father’s cock and break up with your boyfriend and become my personal slut.
I did what a good girl would do and let him cum in my mouth. His hot cum felt like heaven when my mum entered the door and screamed.
Saw a lot of ladies here with amazing tits, but this is how udders actually look like, cannot wait to start pumping
my stepdad took advantage of me for 9 years, and now I am his slave
9 years, of constant training, denial, forced orgasms, porn brainwashing and got here. I finally learned my place as a pathetic whore who earns her master money to live his best life. I never counted, but I estimated fucking over 500 men by now. Is that considered pathetic or a good girl?