u/lovemachine143

I keep going through this cycle where I fully embrace being a sissy/feminine, then suddenly feel ashamed or overwhelmed and purge everything — clothes, accounts, pics, toys, all of it. After a while the feelings come back just as strong and I end up rebuilding everything again. It’s exhausting mentally and emotionally. Part of me enjoys it and feels more like myself, while another part feels guilt, embarrassment, or fear afterward. I’m trying to understand if this is common for others or if there’s something deeper behind it. For people who’ve dealt with this cycle: What causes the purge/return pattern for you? Did it ever stop? How did you become more comfortable or stable with your identity/fetish?