25F Pregnancy fantasies ruined my life.
Ever since I discovered the pregnancy kink community, I've been watching it nonstop. I'm supposed to be studying for an exam, but I just can't focus. Whenever I sit at my computer, I can't resist looking at these pregnancy porn, leaving me constantly turned on.
I'm not sure if I'm ovulating since my periods have always been irregular, but my sex drive has been insanely high lately, and I can't stop fantasizing about getting pregnant. Honestly, I find sweet, passionate baby-making way hotter than forced breeding. Two people deeply in love decide to have a baby. They prep for it, track her cycle, have intense sex on ovulation day, and then wait for fate to take its course. I think pregnant women are sacred—the thought of a new life growing inside a swollen belly moves me deeply. But things before preg are erotic. This clash between the erotic and the sacred drives me wild, which is probably the root of my pregnancy kink.
I can't stop fantasizing about these pornographic scenarios. Like having morning wood sex right before a pregnancy test, peeing on the stick while climaxing, and watching two lines slowly appear with deep satisfaction. I love watching overwhelmingly intense baby-making sex: a big, strong man pinning a woman down, thrusting his hips furiously to shoot his seed as deep into her womb as possible. Overpowered by his size, all she can do is lock her legs around his waist, holding him tight as she feels his semen flow from her pussy right into her uterus.
Just thinking about all this makes me wet badly.
In real life, I'd never actually choose to have kids—the practical downsides just outweigh the benefits for me. But online, I can indulge my fantasies, dirty-talking with all sorts of strong men. I imagine them pumping my body full of thick cum, their strong sperm overpowering me so I have no choice but to let them invade my egg, watching my belly gradually swell. Once my nipples darken and I start lactating, we'd fuck face-to-face. He'd be thrusting into me hard while sucking my swollen nipples, feeding Daddy the milk before the baby gets any. To ensure a smooth delivery, we'd need to fuck even more to keep the pussy nice and elastic.
After the baby is born, I'd be having sex while nursing. The man would suck on my other, free nipple, making it feel like I'm feeding two babies at once. I might even get pregnant with the next one while still nursing, but hey, it's a fantasy, so who cares? That scenario is hot as fuck.
I really need to stop looking at this porn, but I just can't control it. These sexual fantasies have taken over my brain, making it impossible to focus on anything productive, which is honestly pretty frustrating sometimes. I wonder if things will get better once this phase passes—I really need to put these fantasies aside for now and do what I'm supposed to do.😭
(I'm writing this using a translator, hoping it gets my meaning across accurately.)