I'm a long time methcathinone user, but I've been going non stop for weeks now
Now i finally (fuck me) don't have any money left
Now I'm sitting with depersonalization/derealization, my brain feels fuckin dead, I can't focus on shit
I hate this addiction so much but I know I can't stop
I'm 26m, been addicted to methcathinone for 7 years now
I've been to rehab, clean for 2 years, months, then weeks, then months again..only to cave in again.
I'm also a bit dependent on alcohol and my prescription of Clonazepam
Basically... I'm at a point now where I'm fuckin beyond miserable. Some stuff happened to us and everything went to shit and everything is still not going great.
But this fuckin drug man, methcathinone, It's like people say with coke...you do it then hate yourself for doing it... because I'm at a point where I'm just not getting ANY dopamine or shit anymore
I'm on my 3rd bag now and every line I think "This one will release SOME FUCKING DOPAMINE" but nah
U know when I do feel it? When the bag is empty....then I want fucking more...
I dunno how to get out of this