Update: My therapist said extremely inappropriate things to me
I had another session yesterday with my therapist and...oh my god. First of all immediately he noticed my outfit again (pictured) and complimented it. After a bit of typical therapy stuff he said smth like "its not right, but i do think about you at home sometimes, i worry about you". I realized our time was up and i pointed it out but he said he was in no hurry, i was his last appointment and he enjoyed talking to me. And i admitted i didnt know what to talk about anymore but i enjoyed just sitting there with him. And he said so did he. And then he asked if i was wearing stay ups. I said yes. And he said how they used to be popular in the 90s, among rave goers. He said he really enjoys that style, the style of goth that had a bit of kinkyness to it. Thats what he said. This is where it really started getting off the rails...
He said my outfit suited me really well and that he really admired my bravery, wearing what i want without worrying what others think. And oh my god what did he say he said smth about like how my attire wasnt exactly smth i could wear as a nurse though (im a nurse). Then he said smth like "i can imagine male patients would be quite distracted". And he continued saying smth like he knows that if he had a nurse who dressed like me he definitely wouldve enjoyed it. Then he did a lil cough and apologised, saying that that might be a bit rude to say. I said it was ok. And he just continued......😭
He basically said he really enjoys seeing me dressed like this and that hes very tempted by me, but as my therapist thats all it can stay as. An attraction and these moments of temptation. He asked what i thought of him, saying smth like yknow, he was an older man...... I had told him im into older men before. And i said i really enjoy our sessions. And enjoy talking to him. And i admitted i enjoy his reactions to my outfits... And he asked if i was dressing like this on purpose to our sessions, to tease him. I kind of half lied by saying that i dress like this all the time, cause i mean it is true. But it doesnt mean that im not also purposefully trynna dress extra cute for him lol.... He apologised again, asked how i was feeling. If i felt uncomfortable. I told him no. I think he can tell i enjoy it...
Our relationship is absolutely crossing a line at this point, the things he said were super inappropriate,,, but i got so excited.... It feels unreal, it feels like something out of an erotic novel or smth but i swear im not making any of this up😭 i know its wrong but im addicted to the attention i get from him...