u/moonyporter

i haven't had an edible in a hot minute so i took one because i thought it would help me sleep.

that was 30 minutes ago.

and i forgot how weed goes straight to my cunt.

and i kinda forgot how it's been over two months since my last proper orgasm. more than two months? at least two months.

just checked my calendar. it's been 12 weeks to the day. no orgasms. no screaming, sweaty, toe-curling orgasms. just needy, desperate leaking and edging.

god, i love being a good girl. edging is so much fun. im gonna be up all night fucking my cunt and teasing it with the thought of orgasms ive forgotten how to have. edging is so much easier when im hhigh too.

it's almost bedtime. i have things to do in the morning. plans. people to talk to. laundry. whatever. who cares. im gonna be up lateeeeee rubbing my clit and fucking my wet needy little hole. i have new toys to try out ttoo.

69 is a good milestone, right? good time for an update?

so! it's officially been 69 days since my last, real, proper orgasm. granted, some of this denial was mandatory, but after i was allowed to touch again? it feels soooo good. im starting to fall in love with the feeling of my slick, swollen clit between my fingers as i rub, speeding up or slowing down and feeling my denied little cunt leak my brains down my thighs.

there's a constant ache too. when i get triggered, i get triggered hard. my clit throbs and demands attention so often these days. my entire body just feels more sensitive - sensations linger longer. i find myself zoning out in the kitchen, the shower, while getting dressed, and when i come to i find my hands pinching and pulling at my nipples and my breathing is a little heavy. it feels like i'm just bobbing in and out of consciousness some days - feeling focused one minute, and the next minute i feel hazy and wet and not really thinking and just feeling instead.

it's so good. i'm still working on being able to take all of my toys after my six week break. i'm still not quite sure when i'll get to have an orgasm, but i'll get to just enjoy the haze fogging my mind over in the meantime.

anyways. it's friday. i'm spending the rest of the evening nibbling on an edible, slipping a toy in me (because i'm sure i don't need any foreplay, i'm just wet and twitchy all the time now), doing my chores, having a shower, maybe some late dinner, and then going to bed, happily denied and looking forward to waking up with an ache between my legs. happy friday!