u/mrsswitchs

2 months ago I connected with someone online. the first month was unbelievable. i was going through a hard time irl, but he was in my pocket every second. he made me feel so important and wanted. begging for my wet pussy, encouraging me to be his mommy and get off with him. so present and genuine and so sexy and dirty in all the right ways. he was also more experienced with porn and gooning even though he is younger.

we edged constantly that first month but we also talked about our lives in this perfect way. i wanted to be there for him too, and i started to get obsessed with his pleasure. because of a time difference, i would wake up horny at 4am and edge with my good boy for hours. i didn’t have to work as often and i would just sink and encourage. we were so in sync. one time we called each other for impromptu video sex and we were wearing the same color sweater. he noticed and said we were so cute, matching. that made me melt.

after several weeks, i was feeling better and going back to work. i didn’t want to stop gooning, but i need to make it less compulsive. and i wanted to new username lol.

same week, my good boy was in such a weird mood. we always promised to tell each other before we delete, and i felt like this was it. he had a lot of shame about his life and told me about it. he wanted to delete his accounts. i honestly did too and told him. again, it felt like we were in sync. we switched to new accounts together and kept going.

but it’s been different now for a month. i can’t figure out why. he’s more openly sad with me, and i can’t fix things for him. i don’t know if i’m making him happy. he feels shame about gooning too and has gotten moody with me for being too needy and for ignoring him a bit. i told him i wanted more structure, to know when he would be available to goon. i wanted to make time for him and have him make time for me.

now it’s sporadic and we are barely ever in sync. it makes me feel like i’m settling. i realize now how rare/special my connection with him is (was?)

did i just catch feelings? i read a lot about the sudden delete, but what about a fizzle situation?

i’m finally taking a day off to goon this monday! that means i have about two days until my session. it’s been a while, but i’ve done hours-long sessions before

but i’ve been sooo Active lately (thanks to you all🥰) and want to prepare myself to make monday as good a session as possible.

i’m thinking…
- no cumming until monday
- with my spouse, only giving no receiving

should i go totally hands off this weekend or still edge? what are your prep tips?

i’m at a public park, in a parking lot. i’ve been watching porn on my noise cancelling headphones in my unlocked car. edging while people comment on my post. sooo…

do i cum here or go home and ask my spouse to fuck me???

it’s too beautiful to stay in! i put on a dress with a high side slit, left my panties & bra at home and drove to a public park.

i wanted a pretty spot that had a view of the lake. i found a lot without many cars and chose a spot across from a car. i could see a guy in the driver side, laying with his seat back. i started getting wet thinking about climbing in the car with him..

then i parked and saw two women in a literal sunbeam ahead of me. they’re so pretty, i’m kind of stunned when a mustang pulls up fast behind my car, reverses, then parks next to me.

i’m getting excited i chose a spot with more people than i expected. then i notice one of the sunlight fairy goddess women is walking towards my car. she’s so fit and is wearing a short schoolgirl style skirt and a matching top. i don’t know what kind of top because her perfect ass was actually hanging out. i couldn’t believe it.

a guy from the mustang greets her and i’m so glad i have sunglasses on but i’m still trying not to look at them.

i’m already wet and rubbing my thighs together. i brought a fun wearable vibrator with me too. what will i get up to…

update: i’m hitting my weed pen and using my wearable vibrator. it’s not very strong so when i need to edge, i pull my dress up and fuck myself with my toy until i think i’m going to squirt. i’m trying to be subtle but i’m worried my unlocked car is shaking when i pump my pussy…