I miss taking nudes just need to learn to do it more so I can look back at it to see if something changed or just appreciate. Hate that my last relationship ended and now that I’m talking to someone new who wants to meet idk if I’m comfortable getting all naked again in front of him but I was high the first time I met my ex.
I think this picture is where I feel the hottest. I guess I look better in the dark with a flash on lol. But this picture I’ll always go back to when I feel insecure and want to remind myself that I’m actually pretty and I have a great body and I don’t need to look up plastic surgery TikTok’s to save for when I have “money”
What challenges would you give to someone who grew up religious and was told to dress modest? Obviously don’t do public nudity but like be into covering my body with long sleeves and lose pants all the time. It’s extremely hot now so that sucks. Challenges in real life not online
Im scared to show my body in real life. I grew up muslim but left it and i want to explore things like going to the beach, wearing a bikini. Not so I can go be a wh*re but so I can finally get the sun on my body after decades. I want sun of my legs so bad, but i feel so frightened. I have a bunch of scars from falling and just etc. strawberry legs, a huge amount of stretch mark on my hips and ass, discoloration, i have no ass lol. So im holding back on it for now because I keep thinking about fixing my body again fixing the dark spots, scars, working out to look proportional, etc.
Externally look normal but internally the stress finally triggered endometriosis I guess. I would go days without eating due to stress and anxiety of the exams then when I finally completed it I would eat normally. Stayed up for 2 days to finish the 1k anki or more I had to memorize. Abused adderal to help me get through it even though it felt like it didn’t work. I just wanted to graduate and do good. But at what cost?
3 exams in two days can’t wait for my other exam next week to be finally done. Can’t wait to relax and rot ant refresh.