u/perpetualv

looking for someone to connect with before meeting. burlington/hamilton area. i have darker fantasies from being sa i want to explore consensually. i’d like to sit on an older man’s lap while i open up about my traumas. hopefully we could form an attachment and meet multiple times. i like the idea of an older married man using me as a release. bonus if you can book hotels for us.

kinks: anal play (creampies, training w/ butt plugs), swallowing cum, blowjobs, being pissed on, trauma based degradation and humiliation. roleplaying my traumas (being molested, forced blowjobs, anal).

limits: needs to get sti tested w/proof. no impact play, blood, scat, vomit, choking. might have more limits I can’t think of.

if you read this all pls message me with your kinks, age, where you’re from, and general info. only responding to serious inquiries

in my daily life, i’m more dominant, cold, and masculine. when i take off my clothes i’m ashamed i have holes and tits like every other woman. no matter how i try to be a man, i have fucktoy biology. i want to be a protector, but what good is that when i’m 5’3? when i can be easily grabbed and overpowered?

i dated a man when i was younger, when i was closeted. he marked every part of me, raping me hundreds of times. the pain and humiliation is something i think about when i date women. i want to be shown what i don’t have. i will never have a dick unless it’s inside me, taunting me, humiliating me. i’ll never cum inside a woman. i’ll never be taken seriously as a dominant. i wanna embrace that.

i miss being slapped around while i cry and beg to be listened to. i miss the sick, alien feeling of dick poking around my mouth, my cheeks, my throat, the taste of his cum. looking up to a smirking face, the glint in his eye knowing he’s permanently broken a dyke. giving a man the satisfaction through my suffering.

i’ve gotten worse since then. now i want piss. i want my butt filled with piss and plugged. i wanna be a human urinal, waking you up for your morning piss, waiting for your hot piss at the end of the day. i want anal. i wanna be so dehumanized i only get fucked in the mouth and ass. i dont deserve pleasure, i exist for men.

I’ve posted on cnc meetups, hoping to be a slave to a local man. I’m exposing myself more online. i wanna keep denying myself. i want the icky feeling and shame to grow. Above all i want a dada. i want a dada to open about my feelings while i sit on his lap. I want to feel his cock twitch as i vent about the most traumatizing memories of my life. i want him to know exactly how to make me feel little and icky.

every cock i see, every man that cums, i just feel so disgusted with myself. it’s not what i want. but it gets me so wet. the disgust turns me on. and i just wanna get worse and worse and worse. i wanna be a total whore for male validation. the more i hate myself the better slut i am, aren’t i?

i’m looking for someone (age 35 or older) who will consensually help me explore my trauma. i’m willing to meet in public for a coffee date first to see where it goes. if we click I’m easy. ideally i like ages 45+. looking to build something dependent and trusting, (yet humiliating) that i can meet regularly.

kinks: anal play, being violated, being pissed on, drinking piss, throat fucking, facials, being humiliated and taunted for my past sexual trauma, ddlg, orgasm denial, regressing into my trauma

limits: hitting/violence, blood, scat, vomit, physical damage

send me ur “resume”, not just ur age lol. tell me why ur qualified to break a dyke like me

when i was 19, i moved in with my older boyfriend who pretty much raped me every day for months. i was young, insecure, raised on porn and didn’t know what consent was. i didn’t want to say no because i didn’t want to lose him. this led to me agreeing to uncomfortable and degrading sex positions.

i told him i didn’t want to do anal. he eventually took my anal virginity. same with oral. i saw blowjobs as degrading. he ended up throatfucking me and cumming on my face. he never got tested. he never used a condom. he never pulled out and forced me to go on birth control.

i just feel too far gone. when i get triggered, i fall into a loop of making myself worse. stripping for men online, doing degrading tasks and pushing to the extremes. i raped my ass while crying as Reddit men instructed me to go harder. i shoved the dildo in my ass and went on a jog, almost collapsing on the road from shame. i beg men to save my nudes, and force myself to touch to every video of cocks and cum i get. I thank every men by submitting to their orders.

relationships are hard when you get to the point of fucking yourself in public and dreaming of being a human urinal. i’m afraid I’ll never be a normal lesbian again, and will always be obsessed with degrading myself for disgusting men.

i want to be emotionally destroyed and manipulated, pissed on and raped. that’s not a normal thing for a man hating lesbian to say. i hate myself so much. and i can’t stop masturbating. it’s ruining my life.

currently impaling my ass with 8 inches thinking of all the friends that know I love rape. how i destroyed my life for nothing. how I can never go back. thr painal is the only thing that quiets my mind.

i hate my body. i hate how i am built to receive cum. being a woman is so dehumanizing. small, skinny, smooth with a plump ass. i’ll never be a tall strong man. i’ll never impregnate my girlfriend or have kids.

i’ll always be a rape victim. i’ll always be built to receive cum, no matter how i cut my hair or dress masculine. when you take off my clothes, i’m a regular cis woman, easy to pin down and rape. I’ll always be inferior and rapeable. no matter what i do i will be seen as holes to be filled. why fight it anymore?

i want as many men to use me as possible. i want you to cum all over me. i want to be shown your cocks. i want to reinforce the idea that i’m just porn. i have no personhood. i am holes. i pleasure men. i will never be a man.

my dream is to be groomed by a man with a big cock and strong build i wish to be. i want to bring home women to be fucked by him, to be given the throbbing cock i will never have. i want to humiliate myself until there’s no going back, until i only feel worthy of being choked, raped and pissed on, pimped out to whatever gross, ugly man wants a release.

rape me. impregnate me. piss on me. i don’t want you to waste a drop of piss. it’s going to go in my stomach, on my face, in my hair.

I’ve past the point of no return. a stranger is telling me to rape my ass. not slowly, not carefully. not aware of my pain. senselessly and brutally. i came harder than i ever have in my life.

the only people that believe me that i can talk to are the me that want to see me rape my own ass while i cry. and its what i deserve. i liked it. i wanted it. i egged it on by having my rapeable body. touching my ass feels so icky. that’s why i’m anal only. i spiral more every day. hurt me.

*all fantasy…

is repeating my trauma of being exposed, manipulated and abused. tell me how you get off to my pain. spam me with cocks. pretend to be kind just to abuse me. laugh at me while i cry and rape my ass, pleading for your validation. i just want to be useful. i don’t know any other way how.

i used to get raped every single day with no where to go. no job, no money or career. just pain, jizz, and the sadistic smile of my abuser. it’s burned into my memory and i rub to it every single day. i want to be forced to take it. i want to cry, beg and scream while I’m being humiliated, pissed on, groped, violated. i want no one to help me.

*this is a fantasy*

the cocks in my dms were enough to make me force it in. seeing cocks and cum reminds me of my rape and makes me want to hurt myself. anal pain is the only pain that makes my heat go quiet and fuzzy. online isn’t enough. i wanna go out in public and rape myself anally under my clothes.

when i was 19, i moved in with my older boyfriend who pretty much raped me every day for months. i was young, insecure, raised on porn and didn’t know what consent was. i didn’t want to say no because i didn’t want to lose him. this led to me agreeing to uncomfortable and degrading sex positions.

i told him i didn’t want to do anal. he eventually took my anal virginity. same with oral. i saw blowjobs as degrading. he ended up throatfucking me and cumming on my face. he never got tested. he never used a condom. he never pulled out and forced me to go on birth control.

i just feel too far gone. when i get triggered, i fall into a loop of making myself worse. stripping for men online, doing degrading tasks and pushing to the extremes. i raped my ass while crying as Reddit men instructed me to go harder. i shoved the dildo in my ass and went on a jog, almost collapsing on the road from shame. i beg men to save my nudes, and force myself to touch to every video of cocks and cum i get. I thank every men by submitting to their orders.

relationships are hard when you get to the point of fucking yourself in public and dreaming of being a human urinal. i’m afraid I’ll never be a normal lesbian again, and will always be obsessed with degrading myself for disgusting men.

i want to be emotionally destroyed and manipulated, pissed on and raped. that’s not a normal thing for a man hating lesbian to say. i hate myself so much. and i can’t stop masturbating. it’s ruining my life.

i hate my body. i hate how i am built to receive cum. being a woman is so dehumanizing. small, skinny, smooth with a plump ass. i’ll never be a tall strong man. i’ll never impregnate my girlfriend or have kids.

i’ll always be a rape victim. i’ll always be built to receive cum, no matter how i cut my hair or dress masculine. when you take off my clothes, i’m a regular cis woman, easy to pin down and rape. I’ll always be inferior and rapeable. no matter what i do i will be seen as holes to be filled. why fight it anymore?

i want as many men to use me as possible. i want you to cum all over me. i want to be shown your cocks. i want to reinforce the idea that i’m just porn. i have no personhood. i am holes. i pleasure men. i will never be a man.

my dream is to be groomed by a man with a big cock and strong build i wish to be. i want to bring home women to be fucked by him, to be given the throbbing cock i will never have. i want to humiliate myself until there’s no going back, until i only feel worthy of being choked, raped and pissed on, pimped out to whatever gross, ugly man wants a release.

Just a dyke whore that rapes her ass online and looks for men to call dad while venting about sexual trauma… Every pic and video helps me get worse and more public !! :)

tell me why you don’t care and tell me to force it in deeper. send me your dick pics no matter how i tell u to stop. print out my pics and show me how u cum over them. how i have no control how im used. how im on the internet forever.

some guy in my dms convinced me to do this lol. he coached me on how to get the best gape. i love being controlled by real men. the cocks in my dms just remind me of what i’ll never have. i want to be a man’s anal slave and also bring home other girls for them to fuck.

when i was 19, i moved in with my older boyfriend who pretty much raped me every day for months. i was young, insecure, raised on porn and didn’t know what consent was. i didn’t want to say no because i didn’t want to lose him. this led to me agreeing to uncomfortable and degrading sex positions.

i told him i didn’t want to do anal. he eventually took my anal virginity. same with oral. i saw blowjobs as degrading. he ended up throatfucking me and cumming on my face. he never got tested. he never used a condom. he never pulled out and forced me to go on birth control.

i just feel too far gone. when i get triggered, i fall into a loop of making myself worse. stripping for men online, doing degrading tasks and pushing to the extremes. i raped my ass while crying as Reddit men instructed me to go harder. i shoved the dildo in my ass and went on a jog, almost collapsing on the road from shame. i beg men to save my nudes, and force myself to touch to every video of cocks and cum i get. I thank every men by submitting to their orders.

relationships are hard when you get to the point of fucking yourself in public and dreaming of being a human urinal. i’m afraid I’ll never be a normal lesbian again, and will always be obsessed with degrading myself for disgusting men.

i want to be emotionally destroyed and manipulated, pissed on and raped. that’s not a normal thing for a man hating lesbian to say. i hate myself so much. and i can’t stop masturbating. it’s ruining my life.

in a happy relationship with my lesbian gf i just have sm trauma from being raped that she doesn’t know about. she thinks I’m just a stone top and don’t like being touched. meanwhile i severely crave being raped by stinky men that want to abuse me. men that fetishize me for being a lesbian. i just want to be porn to men at the expense of my humanity