Risk vs Reward
Recently, I've been having an internal battle over whether I'm ready to take this whole breeding kink to the next step.
Ever since I was 16, I've had a fascination with pregnant women and spreading my seed. However, that little voice in my head would often pop up and question whether I would really have the cajones to go through with it, and I didn't. But over the years, the desire has quietly grown and then skyrocketed when I discovered Reddit during the COVID quarantine. I would stay up late browsing subreddits like breedingmaterial, breedmedaddy, impregnation, pregnanthonewild, and others, driving myself crazy with thoughts of unloading my seed deep inside a random woman I've just met.
Eventually, I immersed myself further in the Reddit community and even received a few requests for impregnating. However, I would refuse or ghost those requests due to hesitation(and also fear), especially since I wasn't financially stable and was still in school at the time.
As time went on, the urge continued to churn within me, even as I progressed in my studies and work, waiting for the right moment to resurface. Now, at 26, with a few months left to complete my schooling and having achieved decent financial stability, that little voice in my head now tells me I’m ready to finally pursue my desire to breed.
Now part of me really wants to pursue this, but another part remains hesitant. I know I deeply want this, but I also recognize that the probable aftermath(baby is born, whether wanting to be in the child's life, etc) is what’s holding me back from taking the next step. If any guys can help me resolve this internal conflict, I would greatly appreciate your advice.