u/puppyscovenant

I probably won’t be anything in life. Can’t afford college my parents are probably grateful I made the decision not to go becuz I’m such a finance burden apparently.. I’m more than that, I’m a sell out slut losing my sense of self and dignity/self respect.

I just wanna book a flight to another state and be a stripper/personal slut for a week, just one week... Make as much money as I can and finally getting a feel of what it feels like to be spoiled, have enough money to get what I want… and usually I don’t even want much. If I have to sell myself out like a degenerate slut with no self respect then ig I will, I mean,, atp what will I not do for $10?

Maybe I’ll feel more free, less worried and anxious with myself, feeling less bad about myself once I’m on that stage, dancing and grinding against the pole as men who are lost within themselves throw money bills at me like it means nothing to them. Fuck I just wanna be worth something. I don’t even care what I’ll have to do anything, I just wanna feel worth something, less like a burden, I just wanna be able to take care of myself and my needs. I feel nothing when I show myself, I feel nothing when I pleasure myself in front of a camera for a couple a bucks, only thing on my mind is what really matters.

Maybe I’ll finally feel something when I finally learn how to work the pole.

Sometimes I have the hopes of being treated, and fucked like an untamed bitch. Like a stray pup that bares its teeth at anyone who tries to pet it, eventually someone will grab it by the scruff.

So, what I have an attitude, What are you gonna do abt it? So what I bite the hand that gives me attention? You allow it, and let it happen. If you don’t train a dog it’ll misbehave and do whatever it wants. I do whatever I want. I bite you, yet, you pet me anyways, you give me attention anyways. You adore my brattiness, my misbehavior. If you didn’t, you wouldn’t tolerate it, and would’ve Done something abt it!!૮₍｡•̀ ﻌ •́｡₎ა

I’m a mutt, the puppy you can’t help but adore, and want so fucking badly but all I do is toy with you, and run away. I’m a hard butch to capture, a hard bitch to control. Your threats, nor your sweet talk lures me in. I know I’ll never be caught and fucked until my mind is broken down into submission because I’m the one doing the ruining. Poor hunters get ruined by a rare puppy girl they can’t even capture. I tease, and tease, and that’s all I leave you with, pathetically you still get off to it anyways. ૮ • ﻌ - ა

Maybe one day someone will be lucky enough to capture this puppy.♡૮⸝⸝´ ٣ `⸝⸝ა

His hips thrust like a rhythmic lullaby, such gentle rolls as he presses me deeper into the warm bed.. I couldn’t help but get so comfortable, so sleepy, my eyes can’t stay open, and I can’t push him off.. even if I wanted to. Muttering sweet nothings, praises abt how well I’m taking it, and how cute I look when I’m unconscious… pressing sweet kisses, and pecks into my forehead.♡

In my mind, I think its just a wet dream, but no.. its real. Its feel real. Every inch, every thrust, Every kiss, and praise is real. I won’t even really feel it until I wake up the next morning. Confused, sleepy, wondering why I feel so drained despite resting, wondering where the sticky feeling between my thighs come from,.. but once again, I’ll just think its some vivid wet dream that made me so wet I came in real life, but no.. you know the truth.. watching my sleepy expression stare down at the wet spot on the sheets, from the closet. Isn’t it sick how I’ll never know? How I’ll never figure out the reason my panties are wet each time I wake up, along with being so sore.. feeling left empty, like something inside of me is missing. Only in the day it is, but every night you make me take it.

Every night you make it a routine to put your pretty puppy to rest with your cock, I’ll b too dumb to know because all I do is smoke myself out before bed to the point i forget what happened the night before, that’s what you like about me… I make it so easy for you, don’t I? ♡

We both love it when it’s time for bed. zᶻ ૮˶- ﻌ -˶ა⌒)ᦱ♡

i always thought abt being a stripper. They make sm money from men who can't even touch (unless they pay extra) its lowkey intriguing..

i don't want my family to look down on me more than they already do but i bet stripping is probably sooo fun.. I'm not one to dance but spinning around a pole and being sexy shouldn't be that hard for me lol. Every job has their pros and cons but I don’t wanna end up TOO unhappy, i'm only focused on the money, and the fun of it..

Teasing men as i wear a revealing but soo cute outfit and those heels i wanna wear so badly ♥︎(≧∀≦), luring men and seducing them for money like i'm some sort of kitsune.. that would be soo fun. Only thing stopping me is the fear of being recognized by someone i know, or once did.. i don't wanna be looked down upon like i'm a prostitute or some shit, I have all respect for sex workers. But stripping is one of my fucking dream jobs i pray to get sometimes and HOPE works out well for me..

I wonder how do ppl even start?

giving in when i know i have more important things to do...telling myself that it's ok to put myself first when i know i have errands, or Homework that can't wait any longer to be done. I can't contain myself sometimes.. i can't control my needs, my desires. ♡

Pleasure is just too hard not to give into.

all i do is indulge, and consume porn. I love edging, i'll never stop. I've been so fucking needy lately, making it a challenge not to touch myself at all while i'm on my cycle for the next 7 days. It's gonna be so fucking hard, especially with the crazy bold sexual thoughts ive been having lately, fck i'm so sleepy as i type dis lo. but fuck- periods rlly ARE heats for humans. You're aggressive, you're needy and hungry, and i've been sof fcking aggressively horny lately to the point my vibrator is nothing to me ૮ ˶′ ཅ ‵˶ ა

I need more.

I need it physically.

Just give me the real deal.

Its almost like God knows not to give me a BF because he knows i'll break, and ruin him completely. Any man after being with me will never be the same again. My mind tells me i'm fixing them, healing them, but really i just ruins guys mental health even worse by being the obsessive annoying, horny slut i am. once i'm attached i'll never let go, and i'll ruin you, once i have you i'm nothing but a walking spell. ૮⸝⸝´ ٣ `⸝⸝ა ♡. i swear it's almost like my crush knew, it's almost like he saved himself going to the marines once we got back in contact, and i admitted how obsessed i am with him...fuck i hate it when Men are smart.

i wanna be treated like a slut, and a good puppy at the same time. Have my sweet bf empty all his frustrations, and desires into me, so we can both watch it leak out. How romantic. ♡υ˶˃ ﻌ ˂˶υ

am i wrong?

am i wrong for wanting to be taken away, like kidnapped. Snatched away by a guy who just couldn't handle his desire for me anymore, stalking wasn't enough so he finally got the courage to just invite me over to smoke...the weed, laced. Thinking i could handle my high till i passed out on his couch. I find being kidnapped by your lover/admirer so romantic, like wdym you love me so much you take me all for yourself, and keep me away like sacred treasure. The thought gets me so excited'. ᐡ > ﻌ < ᐡ

i wanna wake up in his home, confused not knowing how i got there. Prove your love to me by locking me in your closet for a few nights. ♡

my version of love is so unrealistic, and sickening, all i do is imagine being taken away from my sucky household without having to run away, only then maybe my fam will finally feel bad, or care in some way.. Waking up in bounds, duck tape over my mouth as he has me in his lap, gentle with me- petting me, and praising me so lovingly, watching the news talk about how i'm missing, and the last know details. ૮ ˶′ ཅ ‵˶ ა

He'll whisper to me how we're finally together, and i'll love it, every second, every moments. Even when it's punishment, punishment done out of love, i'll still need the attitude, and fight trained out of me. ♡ Being fucked on the coffee table as the news keeps urging anyone who knows anythng, to say something. Pulling my hair, spanking my ass making me take every inch as he edges, and denies me from orgasm, i deserve it. I deserve it for being such a brat. υ˶˃ ﻌ ˂˶υ

I wanna be loved, loved so much i'll never be let go. ♡ ૮˶- ﻌ -˶ა⌒)ᦱ

getting hunted in the park by my sweet bf who's had enough of my brattiness, and me begging him to chase me down, he'll have an alethic build where i'll jst need to test out how fast can he run, and how far i can push my limits. Being chased down until im out of breath, panting and sweating, worn out and I drop to the floor as my legs give out on me.. they go numb. I try so herd to crawl away but my bf steps on my back. Keeping his boot there to keep me in place from crawling any further. He'll be silent but I know deep down inside he wants to punish me.. I'm too tired... "just let it happen" he'll mutter to me as he lays me belly down, over a log. ♥ Spanking me so many times my brain is dazed from the pain, I lose count.. being treated like a dumb runaway puppy, that's all I wanna be. A dumb punished runaway puppy.. :3 getting fucked and breed, stuffed full of cum till the point it's bulging out, leaking out, my bf will take two fingers and stuff it back inside me.. fuck the thought makes my pussy drool. ( ´͈ ٣ `͈) I wanna be fucked into oblivion. I wanna be hunted and captured like a wild slut.. punished and trained to be used for pleasure.♥

couldn't stop edging myself all weekend.

playing with myself till my clit goes numb, hopefully this week i give myself a break. Starting with friday i just could help but let go.. such a rough week both physically and emotionally, pounding me in the ass with all kinds of bullshit, i couldn't help but need a way to let out my pent up frustrations, and sadness.

Fuck it felt so good finally opening my twt acc, and watching porn after a while.. i almost came in seconds but i quickly pulled back and edged myself, making myself wait and earn it like a good puppy. I'm still trying to train myself. It's like i finally had the time to be needy, in fact- it's weird becuz usually my mind runs with all kind of ideal scenarios of ways i could get fucked, which is why i always get so horny in the first place, in fact..i was my own porn this time. Taking the time to finally take pictures of my pussy, giving her some attention, then realizing how pretty she is.. all this time i praise every other part of my body not realize the main jewel was the one i'm constantly playing with. ♡(⸝⸝⸝>﹏<⸝⸝⸝)

I took saturday, getting myself all dolled up, looking at my pussy in the lingerie i brought myself,i looked so fcking cute... maybe i'll post the pics on my acc. i'm such a pretty puppy sometimes..υ˶˃ ﻌ ˂˶υ

one of my fav mutuals suggested i play with myself in front of the mirror, admire myself, and my pussy... what a good idea, huh? And now, it's sunday.. maybe i should spoil myself tn, and admire my pussy while i play with it, and look in the mirror, hm? ૮ • ﻌ - ა♡

Reminiscing about all our interactions… when we first met..The awkward stage, the honeymoon stage.. then the ghosting…but none of that mattered to me, I was still attached after, and I’m still attached now..

Reminiscing about our dms.. scrolling back to reread the sexual interaction I never thought I’d have for you.. the way toy teased me.. I had high expectations but you kept letting me down, nothing mattered because the only thing that was on my mind was your dick, and the ways I’d take it..

All I do is imagine being broken by you in ways I know you’d never do… poor poor virgin me craving something I can’t handle, getting my body treated like some pathetic sexdoll had always been something that ran across my mind, I’m always thinking about sex, even when I try to not think abt it, it’s always something that turns me on.. fuck I can’t get enough.. I at least want to suck cock if I can’t do anything else… watch a guy cum, and moan for me… watch him throw his head back with pleasure because I’m the one causing it. I just want to be someones desires all over again…

The feeling of being told I’m the reason someone came, or is Hard, rly fucking turns me on.. it turns me on so bad knowing I’m someone’s pleasure…I want to be the reason someone cums.. I remember my crush told me i looked so fcking good, after I showed him a nude and rlly cute pic of me.. ;3 he said he was imagining/thinking abt grabbing me, and fucking u.. mind u this dude is like 6,2, and I’m like 5,5.. fuck he’d rlly break me… i wish he was here so I could tease him till I break that nonchalant demeanor, and have him pissed enough to break me in till my fucking legs are shaking… god I’m such a slut from craving someone real.. never have I thought I would in my life-time.. I went from cumming to the thought of my fav characters fucking me, to real life people I’ve had sexual interactions with fucking me until I can’t stand.

Literally, how am I still a virgin?…

I’ll always find comfort in pleasure… When I felt it for the first time, it’s like I didn’t give it up ever since..

Blurring all the negative thoughts in my head with pleasing ones, even if they’re delusional. Imagining all the ways I could feel good, and distract myself from the sad reality I live so undeservingly, but who I am to complain?

Daydreaming in the middle of my classes, thinking abt getting fucked, or sucking cock till I can’t stop drooling to distract myself from the judgmental stares my classmates give me, or the fact I’m failing my classes and it’s too late to fix. It. Pleasure is a distraction.

While I get bullied by my peers, in my head I’m imagining myself getting bullied in a different way.. my knees pressing into my shoulders as I’m pulled into a full nelson by a non existing guy I made up in my head, he’s taunting, yet, giving mocking praises at the same time..pressing a rough bicep against my throat to keep me quiet as he makes me cum on his thick cock… I’m such a dreamy slut… imagining, and dreaming abt something I know I’ll never be able to have, I’m truly pathetic. A daydreaming slut with a mind full of scenarios I could write an entire fucking book abt if I was lazy, and unmotivated.. stuck in my head romanticizing every interaction with an attractive Male because I’m not rlly used to it.. I’ll be so clingy, and desperate once I get fucked. I won’t be able to leave whatever guy gets luck (or, unlucky) with me alone..I’m a possessive puppy. I won’t be able to get enough go the one thing that gives me pleasure, and attention.

All I do is write out my thoughts, and desires like a desperate slut because I have no other way to take out my sexual frustrations.. deprived of attention, deprived cock, and deprived of love… how will I get cock if I’m not loved, or liked? And, how will I be loved., or liked when I can’t even love myself..? I find so much comfort in being able to just rub away my feelings until my bak arches, and my mind blurs with pleasure.. orgasming is a fucking drug, a drug I can’t get enough of, and the only thing that stops me from over doing it is the burns outs I have after going 2 rounds,.. LOL I’m kinda weak aren’t I?

it’ll be ok, I’m training myself to be able to handle more rounds, all puppies need training!’ υ˶˃ ﻌ ˂˶υ