Never wanting the high/trip to end
I noticed a huge difference between my attitude towards a high and my age. When I was younger, I used to love the first hour of the high, or the trip, but then I began to panic or simply got bored, and ended up just sitting around and waiting for the shit to be over. Now however, it feels like it’s never enough for me. It’s not strong enough, doesn’t last long enough. When I feel that it’s coming to an end I get annoyed and have to stop myself from getting another fix. I get satisfied only when I’m absolutely fucked up to the point where I think “oh shit, I overdone it”, and I know that it would be absolutely impossible to act sober or function in public without causing a scene. I wonder if I took a break this never ending feeling of wanting more and more would stop. Anyone else experienced this? Because I’m starting to suspect that it might be a sign that I have a problem, or will. For example, I used to absolutely love weed and enjoy alcohol. The buzz used to be fun to me and everything, but after a while, when I got ahold of other stuff, I got bored with alcohol. Now I can’t drink it without wanting to get cross faded because it literally annoys me how little of an effect it has on me. Similarly with weed, though I still enjoy it a lot, I just get depressed after an hour when the high starts to disappear, for a lack of a better word. I’m just so happy when I’m under the influence, it compares to nothing, it’s so beautiful yall know what I mean? Is there any way to stop feeling that without quitting everything altogether? Or in other words, am I fucked forever?